{4.5.09}
Soft whispers of a delicate voice: Is it you hiding in my subconscious?
Perhaps not, but your presence lives within my heart.
I will love you forever.
My open canvas--my body--a journal of internal and eternal pain.
My mind, a wanderer of lost faith, and faint love.
I'm still struggling to find, the gentle ring in your voice.
Forgive me for my erratic behavior, but these suppressed memories
are leaking---through my sealed eyelids and my bleeding heart.
But the glorious light will shine from above, and my fear will disintegrate: I'll feel the warmth of your love again.
I will remember you forever.
Forgive me, because at times I patiently wait for a squall to guide me beyond the heavens.
And Finally I'll see you again, since that faithful day.
But I cannot press destiny for its arrival--I cannot sacrifice my life, for unreasonable selfishness.
I will repay your gratitude, for my non-hiatus living.
Forgive me, for my uncontrollable trembles: my heart only speaks the truth.
But the resistance to hope, seems to fade away--as you grace my subconscious with your spirit.
I will always search for you.
I will love you forever.
I will always search for you.
I will always search for you.Impatient urges brought my pacing feet, towards your name.
Embedded into the deteriorating stone; I stand over your remnants.
Alone, empty...yet I feel the sensation of pure, yet faint feathers, brushing around me--the kindness in this embrace.
My hallucinations rewarding me with petrified comfort.
I am aware of the false security--I'm aware of the bitter-sweet in all of this.
But I beg: allow me to stay under this disrupting scenery.
The warm drops of pelleting rain, soothe me nostalgically.
It reminds me of your forgotten love and sincerity.
I will always love you.
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RIP Ông(Khoi Pham)
<3
A/N: The PV Squall by D'espairsRay really encouraged me to write a poem for a deceased family member of mines. I loved this particular family member dearly, so I tried my best to convey my emotions and utter depression into this. I honestly loved the outcome of this, and I hope you will too! I will continue this author note another day!<3
--x_k
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