Shuffle
It shouldn't be this hard to leave.
every time.
Freezing. again.
Frigid air.
Frigid attitude.
New York City.
I hope I'm never like you.
You beautiful bitch.
I love everything about you.
and, sometimes, I hate that.
If you searched for me in the crowd here
I'd be Waldo.
Look hard enough
and we all stand out.
Red stripes.
I have no idea what I want out of this semester.
I miss palm trees.
I thought I had an extra sim card.
I don't.
It sucks.
Though I'm glad replacing some phone numbers
is the worst to worry about
after that night.
How can people be so selfish?
Never have I been so willing to fight back.
Irrational.
Unforgiving.
ANGRY.
Dwell, dwell, dwell.
I thought the scars might never heal.
On the plane yesterday
the man in front of me
helped everyone with their luggage.
he was pretty young,
pretty tall,
and he looked all kinds of cuddly.
he chatted with the lady at his side
she was bitter about family, life,
all the things we choose to take for granted.
the stranger tapped her on the knee
and said
"just keep breathing.
i promise, it helps."
sily, i know.
a restoration of faith
from a man ive never met.
but he smiled
and-
i know the scars will heal.
There's always so much to say.
New Year.
NEW.
every time.
Freezing. again.
Frigid air.
Frigid attitude.
New York City.
I hope I'm never like you.
You beautiful bitch.
I love everything about you.
and, sometimes, I hate that.
If you searched for me in the crowd here
I'd be Waldo.
Look hard enough
and we all stand out.
Red stripes.
I have no idea what I want out of this semester.
I miss palm trees.
I thought I had an extra sim card.
I don't.
It sucks.
Though I'm glad replacing some phone numbers
is the worst to worry about
after that night.
How can people be so selfish?
Never have I been so willing to fight back.
Irrational.
Unforgiving.
ANGRY.
Dwell, dwell, dwell.
I thought the scars might never heal.
On the plane yesterday
the man in front of me
helped everyone with their luggage.
he was pretty young,
pretty tall,
and he looked all kinds of cuddly.
he chatted with the lady at his side
she was bitter about family, life,
all the things we choose to take for granted.
the stranger tapped her on the knee
and said
"just keep breathing.
i promise, it helps."
sily, i know.
a restoration of faith
from a man ive never met.
but he smiled
and-
i know the scars will heal.
There's always so much to say.
New Year.
NEW.