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ahh late merry xmas! haha, i haven't updated in a couple days. i haven't been home. my dad [david]called again, idk if i told you that last time. but he did and theyre not telling my sister. which is dumb, but whatever. xmas eve we went to wyoming with all those people. then dad and i left and went to his moms. it was fun. then sis stayed the night and addum came over and we opened our presents at like midnight. lol addum was santa :D haha. it was fun. then we watched Napoleon Dynamite. that movie is kick ass. lol then saturday we went to dads moms house and then ten minutes after we got there dad and i took mom and janell to aunt pams. which was also gay. fight number one. then dee and gramma got in a fight. that was fight two. it was rather eventful. then i came home and watched movies with delmar cos i haven't seen him in about a week. which seemed like forever cos he's usually around. his mom didn't think we were gonna find the green carebear that we ended up finding, so she got me a necklace. lol it's super cute tho. it's a butterfly. lol. i have a ton more necklaces now. i had the hemp with the dead-head bear on it, the colored-beaded one, the one with random things on them, which jen made all of them so i never took them off. then the one al got me in 8th grade for graduation, a cross cos i never had one. well mom got me another freaking cross i love it. and my aunt pam got me a really pretty sparkly one. and then the one from delmar. so i had to take some off =( which really upsets me cos one i took off was jens and i hate it. i dont wanna lose it so i never ever took those off for about 5 years. i really miss her.. it'll be 7 years this summer. life fucking sucks. everyone was sad about grandpa but i didn't cry. idk, its christmas he wants us to be happy not sad. idk.. whatever i just deal with everyone oh'so much differently than everyone else. oh well. i got sweaters for xmas too. no jeans, that i actually need. oh no, sweaters. blah. and i got a straightner, curlers, hemp kits, and a buncha other stuff. and i got 75 bucks and made my car run and look pretty all in one day :D haha. i got the altunator for it and my dad found the white gages that i wanted on ebay for 20 bucks so i ordered those. and i got these dice that glow blue. they are pimp. i have a dollar and a penny left. but i'm happy my car runs. :D i guess ben broke up with his girlfriend. on xmas. lol. how nice?- hes a sweetheart tho, to me at least. he's been trying to hangout like everynight all break but i never have a ride into pekin. it's making me really mad cos i wanna hangout with him sean and sam. :( oh well i guess.. i was supossed to go to my real dads tonight but i went to my stepdads moms instead cos i was hungry and wanted to eat. she makes awesome food. i love the holidays :D lol. i also wanted to steal alicias peanut butter cookies too. they rock. lol. idk what's goin on for new years eve. i'm going to seans and drinking i know that for sure. delmars going with me and he'll have the jeep fixed so we have a ride home. dad said i can't stay anywhere cos my friggen mother will flip out. imagine that one! thats all she ever does. today she was like, " wanna know what really pisses me off?- i'm an outsider in my home. you make everything about your dad anymore " well sorry, we like cars. i wanna do something for myself and my car is what im doing. sorry i wanna learn about cars, and im sorry that he doesnt bitch at me all the fucking time!- ahh! i'm about to lose my mind!- this is a really long entry. so i'm pry gonna stop writing. omg! lol delmar was here today and i asked him something about how good someone looked when he was drunk and he goes, " it was blurry! turned off the lights and everything was ohkay " i died. lol it was fucking hilarious. lol. but i'm gonna go. later.