i travelled across the ocean. with the same shoes, just longer hair.
Today was interesting.
1.) I was at the studio super early, practicing and practicing and practicing. Mom calls, wanting me to go out for lunch with her. I say yes, but that I wanted her to come. Because she wouldn't, I started crying. I don't know what happened. Maybe it's a whole pile of things built up and that was my last straw (a very very very tiny straw). I hung up the phone, fell on the floor and started crying. What?
2.) Found out some news. I'm not sharing the news, and the news isn't directly affecting me.. but it still worries me. I hate it when people I care about go through a hard time. Anyway, I just hope they know I'm here for them 300% no matter what happens. I love you, so so so much.
3.) ALSO found out that in Sexy and Dangerous I basically have to fuck someone on stage. Me and Shannon have a pas de deux called Love Is Blindness.. and at the beginning I have to lay on a bed with him, making out and "riding" him. WHATTTT. I mean I guess I should get over stuff like this if I want to dance pro.. but Shannon is like a brother to me.
For the next two weeks I'm going to be so busy. This week I'm working on two shows at once. Plus working. Plus swimming. Plus application. Plus some sort of social life.. ugh, it's going to be hard to see friends now.
I really need to get in better shape so I asked Shannon what to do. He helped, a great deal. Basically, I have to do something that I rarely do. Since I dance, run and walk so often - that's not going to happen. Swimming is the choice right now.
...i honestly hate how i've been acting the past two days. it's like my emotions are going against me. my heart is going against me. i need to distract myselffffffffffffffffffffffffff. waaaaaaa
1.) I was at the studio super early, practicing and practicing and practicing. Mom calls, wanting me to go out for lunch with her. I say yes, but that I wanted her to come. Because she wouldn't, I started crying. I don't know what happened. Maybe it's a whole pile of things built up and that was my last straw (a very very very tiny straw). I hung up the phone, fell on the floor and started crying. What?
2.) Found out some news. I'm not sharing the news, and the news isn't directly affecting me.. but it still worries me. I hate it when people I care about go through a hard time. Anyway, I just hope they know I'm here for them 300% no matter what happens. I love you, so so so much.
3.) ALSO found out that in Sexy and Dangerous I basically have to fuck someone on stage. Me and Shannon have a pas de deux called Love Is Blindness.. and at the beginning I have to lay on a bed with him, making out and "riding" him. WHATTTT. I mean I guess I should get over stuff like this if I want to dance pro.. but Shannon is like a brother to me.
For the next two weeks I'm going to be so busy. This week I'm working on two shows at once. Plus working. Plus swimming. Plus application. Plus some sort of social life.. ugh, it's going to be hard to see friends now.
I really need to get in better shape so I asked Shannon what to do. He helped, a great deal. Basically, I have to do something that I rarely do. Since I dance, run and walk so often - that's not going to happen. Swimming is the choice right now.
...i honestly hate how i've been acting the past two days. it's like my emotions are going against me. my heart is going against me. i need to distract myselffffffffffffffffffffffffff. waaaaaaa