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[x_into_you]

wow, so uh, let me tell you about something that sucks.
its 115 in the morning, and im sad. really really sad.
so tonight, was the gathering. it was good. people came. billy was great.
so was everyone else.
billy and i went back to his house afterwards. and it was good.
until i was stupid and paid little attention to how billy was feeling. i messed up. like i do. we left later than we should of, i probably made him late getting home. i messed with his hair, after he said not to. pretty petty. but big in my world.
see, i have this habit of messing up sometimes, and sometimes i think that one day, he's going to think im not worth the trouble i give him sometimes. only i pray thats not the case, because that boy, he is my everything, and i would be nowhere without him. i really hope he never realizes how much i don't deserve him. and i really hope, that i can learn to mess up less, so that i run less of a chance of making him give up.
please don't give up on me, baby. i love you, more than any words could ever begin to describe, and you are my everything.
nine months of perfection and counting. me and you, forever.

i love you.
kristina