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I feel like I need to write right now. I don't particulary enjoy writting in here. Most of the time it's just something to do, or a way of communicating to someone direct, or indirectly.
I've been down lately, especially today. I'm not jealous, no. And I wouldn't go as far as saying I'm envious, but I'm something. I feel incompetant. I feel like a rookie.. I guess. I'm not pretty enough, I'm not smart enough, not quick enough, I'm simply just not good enough.
Today was a bad day. Work was misrable. I feel like the black sheep at work sometimes, most of the time.
I came home tonight and ran upstairs to the bathroom. Sometimes I feel like the shower is the only place I can call my own. I can let my thoughts and emotions go for as long as I want, or as short as I want. Crying doesn't feel like crying either. The water comes out so fast, and trickles down your face so much I can't tell.
I just want to go to bed.
I've been down lately, especially today. I'm not jealous, no. And I wouldn't go as far as saying I'm envious, but I'm something. I feel incompetant. I feel like a rookie.. I guess. I'm not pretty enough, I'm not smart enough, not quick enough, I'm simply just not good enough.
Today was a bad day. Work was misrable. I feel like the black sheep at work sometimes, most of the time.
I came home tonight and ran upstairs to the bathroom. Sometimes I feel like the shower is the only place I can call my own. I can let my thoughts and emotions go for as long as I want, or as short as I want. Crying doesn't feel like crying either. The water comes out so fast, and trickles down your face so much I can't tell.
I just want to go to bed.