...thinking
I noticed this week that growing up scares the crap out of me. I haven’t done anything in with my life, I’m afraid to take that plunge into adulthood. Once you get there you cant go back. And when you grow up you should have some kids and a family. I mean I know you don’t have to but that is how I thought I was going to live my life. My plan was go to school get a job and get married by 30. I sit here and think I need to do something, and yet I just sit on my ass going from one minimum, wage job to another. I’m so scared tho. I think about it for hours why I do this to myself. I need to stop being scared and just live my life fuck the being married , having kids and a good job. I will get those things one day but I need to just live my life and not be afraid to take chances. I got to try.