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hmm.. what can i say what can i say. today was a great great great great day.
hung out with matt from 12-5.. then went to church at 6 with cat and zach.
i know i probably shouldn't feel this way but i think i like matt.. again.
and i am considering giving him another chance, even though i swore up and down and up down that i never would ever again.
i did things today, that i thought i would NEVER do.. ever.
BUT I DONT REGRET A THING.
life throws you obstacles that you must face on your own.
i just hope i won't reget what i choose to do with this boy problemo.
he was a gentle man to me today, which is what i love in a guy.. it reminded me of the good times we used to face together..
but me and this stephen kid are great, but he doesnt want a relationship/commitment deal, and that is what I want...
i hope God has my backon this one and shows me the right thing to do..
because what me and stephen has is verryyy special and would never want to hurt him in any way form or fashion, he is a great kid who deserves the best..... i like him alot though, and visa versa.. : )
but what me and matt have is love, but i am sick of only being with him, even though what we had was special..[ and i think we still have it]
someone help me, i think i am going to meet stephen and see how we click and such, and then from there see how i feel for matt...
bc i know in my heart that stephen will probably kill off ALOT of the feelings i have for matt.. and actually want STEPHEN.. i know this............. Stephen is what i have wanted for so long in a guy.
stephen is all i think about, so he is going to be my goal, i like him and want him.. hopefully it works out, matt is old news..
but watch me run back to him in the future......
dazed and confused,
ASHLEY
longest lj post i have written.... in my life.
plus stephen wrote a super long poem about me, and poetry always wins my heart..
<3
im sticking to my stephen : ) ........ thank you katlyn!