wow life sucks like that
so yeah I got really bad news it finially happened she dumped me it sucks it sucks really bad you know when people say that they love someone really quickly atfer they start dating and alot of the time they don't mean it yet well I am one of those people I always endup saying it but I dont mean it at all well this time with jessie it was different it was alot different there was something about her that I just couldnt get enough of and when we had that first kiss there was something there i knew i really felt strongly for her and only after about a week i fell in love we were perfect for about a month and a half or so until we started fighting and it wasnt really bad at all so i looked past it but it started getting worse and worse until on monday our 2 month we got into a really bad fight after the most perfect day i screwed it up again then that night later after i got home we talked on the phone and she told me what was going on she told me i had changed i wasnt the same scott she had fallen in love with and i was so pist i started another fight and we just stopped talking for the night and at that moment after we got off the phone i realized she was right i did screw it up i did change and i knew exactly how i knew for sure i could fix it just like that but i had no time the next morning we talked again and she started bringing in breaking up it sucked and i finially talked her into just having me come over after we both did the things we had to go take care of and it was all fine but unfortunatly thats not how it went it went worse alot worse she wouldnt even see me she just broke up with me and had that be it she tells me she needs time to figure it out and she doesnt know what she wants to happen but i dont get it because if you really love someone wouldnt you atleast give them the one chance to fix it wouldnt you care to just try and make things better i dont know whats going to happen but this morning i woke up with three messages from her crying and telling me she wants to talk now i think that they were from last night now i am waiting around till noon to get a call from her i am hoping everthing will be better maybe she will just be calling to tell me her time is up she knows what she wants and its me but i doubt it. but i really do love you so much jess you have no clue you say i should really think about it and it hurts because i did think about it and i do i really do there would be no way for me to care about it this much i do i do i do I DO LOVE YOU!!