Meh...
I don't know whats wrong with me at the moment, I should be happy right, boyfriend, job shit like that, but i'm not, I've been trying to keep this all to myself for ages now, you know, me being me and all, keep a brave face on and all that jazz, but i can't do it anymore. I feel psychially and mentally drained and I really don't know whats wrong. Everyone says how I look really happy recently and stuff so I know it's gonna be a dissapointment for all those people to read this, but I thought i'd let you all know. So selfish I can't even tell you myself. Went outside just now to be alone for awhile and did a bit of spinning to clear my head and shit, but I think it made me feel worse rather than better, it made me put my life into perspective. Hmph! GRRR! I hate feeling like this, I should be happy, I deserve it, right!? I'm such a fucking depressive bitch sometimes, and it's even worse when I don't even have a reason to be depressed! Fuck it, i'm going to bed to sleep and think! xXx