its hard to see me smile.
july 12, 2006 was the worst day of the summer.
the only boy i thought i'd ever give my heart to again died. this was a sad sick fucking day. i'm in shock. im still thinking he's gonna fucking attack me when i get home again. he wasn't even one year old yet. Morgan i love you baby boo. i hope to god that you made it up there alright. =*( i know how you like to mess around and go "exploring" but im sure you got there. it was so suddent too. like... he was FINE. he had a brain anurizem(sp?) i had to leave work early =( it sucks because i was mopping the floor before i went to work and he kept coming in there and getting lil paw prints all over the floor and we did this like 12x and i swear to god if i knew i'd never seen him again after that then i'd let him walk whereever he wanted to go. anyways so he was taking a break. because hes so hyper all the time you know... and then he started crying. then fell over and died. they tried everthing. CPR. everything. but thats why he acts all crazy hyper... apparently. im not a fucking doctor. it just sucks... because i never got to show him how good it really could be. we never took walks. nothing.... i miss him more than he'd probably think. no one is gonna be able to wake me up with slobbery kisses or eat like 20 pizza rolls in one minute. IT SUCKS!! god damn it. i miss him so much. its not fair. puppies arent suppose to die. puppies arent suppose to die. but i have his little dog tag that i made with the blue bone. i made a necklace.
i love you morgers!!!!!!!!!!!!
the only boy i thought i'd ever give my heart to again died. this was a sad sick fucking day. i'm in shock. im still thinking he's gonna fucking attack me when i get home again. he wasn't even one year old yet. Morgan i love you baby boo. i hope to god that you made it up there alright. =*( i know how you like to mess around and go "exploring" but im sure you got there. it was so suddent too. like... he was FINE. he had a brain anurizem(sp?) i had to leave work early =( it sucks because i was mopping the floor before i went to work and he kept coming in there and getting lil paw prints all over the floor and we did this like 12x and i swear to god if i knew i'd never seen him again after that then i'd let him walk whereever he wanted to go. anyways so he was taking a break. because hes so hyper all the time you know... and then he started crying. then fell over and died. they tried everthing. CPR. everything. but thats why he acts all crazy hyper... apparently. im not a fucking doctor. it just sucks... because i never got to show him how good it really could be. we never took walks. nothing.... i miss him more than he'd probably think. no one is gonna be able to wake me up with slobbery kisses or eat like 20 pizza rolls in one minute. IT SUCKS!! god damn it. i miss him so much. its not fair. puppies arent suppose to die. puppies arent suppose to die. but i have his little dog tag that i made with the blue bone. i made a necklace.
i love you morgers!!!!!!!!!!!!