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okay so i decided that im not gonna let myself forget about my journal. i mean, i've had this journal for years. sometimes it's been my only friend you know. it's always there if i need someone to talk to and usually at the end of my entries for some reason i always get a sense of relief. i shared so many happy times. probably some of the happiest times of my life on here, with people who i'll probably never have the same feelings about again, but that's subject to change. the people i've talked about in this journal are still around. its just most of them are different. we've had fall outs. fall ins. everything. and sometimes it really hurts to look back on an entry when i was so in love or the best day of my life..you know. because i miss it. and i guess im trying to remember how to smile, when i read my past entries about my old best friends, chad, everything. and i guess im trying to learn to catch myself before i get so down that i dont wanna get up. make sense? and my LJ friends are probably some of the best people i've ever met. i just wish that we all lived closer because shit... you guys are my best friends sometimes =) i love you.
anyways...
i know i said i'd never do the damn myspace thing. but really i made one. it is lame to me still. and i am always on it. because... its there. sometimes you forget about important things that are there or people when there is something new that EVERYONE is doing. and i know that i am probably one of the biggest hypocrites ever. and i know, but whatever. i mean i dont feel that way in my eyes. i feel as though, i felt that way for a "momment in time" get it? so whatever. anyways so i did have this big entry planned about my work and everything that is going on lately. but then i was like i really shouldn't be incriminating evidence about people i work with online. hahahahahaha. they'll probably google me because hes such a psycho. so if and when i make this post i'll be private. i was thinking about making my whole journal public again. but that idea, is subject to change too.
so i am off to yoga class.. its every Tuesday 10-11. then im going to be hangin out with the lovely stacey. then work =( see ya latahhh
anyways...
i know i said i'd never do the damn myspace thing. but really i made one. it is lame to me still. and i am always on it. because... its there. sometimes you forget about important things that are there or people when there is something new that EVERYONE is doing. and i know that i am probably one of the biggest hypocrites ever. and i know, but whatever. i mean i dont feel that way in my eyes. i feel as though, i felt that way for a "momment in time" get it? so whatever. anyways so i did have this big entry planned about my work and everything that is going on lately. but then i was like i really shouldn't be incriminating evidence about people i work with online. hahahahahaha. they'll probably google me because hes such a psycho. so if and when i make this post i'll be private. i was thinking about making my whole journal public again. but that idea, is subject to change too.
so i am off to yoga class.. its every Tuesday 10-11. then im going to be hangin out with the lovely stacey. then work =( see ya latahhh