My life is ridiculous.
I dont understand why I have to think about things so much.
Ever since I came back from TN, Ive done nothing but think about the past.
Why cant I just realize its in the past, & thats where it needs to stay.
B/c thinking about how things would work out & what not is driving me crazy.
I hate that fucking saying.. 'if you love something let it go, if it were truly meant to be, itll come back to you.'
Yeeeaaahh, fuck that. B/c its not. & at this point, I dont want it to.
I can only do so much.. & when nothing happens for MONTHS, my only option is to give up.
So I guess this is giving up.
Mike & I are still talking.
He is prolly one of the most difficult males Ive ever encountered.
I dont mean this is a bad way. He is like a challenge. Its fun sometimes.
I just wish I knew where this was going.
We have been talkin since middle of Feb.. & I dont think I can say we are dating. Although, anyone who sees us would say so.
Unless its one of those 'unspoken' understandings.. Where we are & I shouldnt have to question it.
Maybe, b/c Mike is like that.
I dont know. Im just enjoying my time with him.
We always have so much to talk about.
I was reading my friend Danielles journal.. & she said that Myspace upgraded their content?!
What the hell is that shit?? B/c now I cant get on it while at work.
I just thought it had something to do with the IT guy blocking it somehow.. B/c I cant get on AIM Express either.
Im so fuckin bored. I just sit & listen to music all day.
Or get on here.. But there isnt much to do when you have nothing to write about.
Ive already read everyones journals.
Syracuse has been having some exceptional weather lately.
Its warming up.. Im so stoked! I cant wait for it to still be 70 at night.
It felt great last night.
I went to some bars I hadnt been to yet.
PJ Dorseys. Awful Al's. That place rocks b/c you can smoke inside. I bought a cigar last night there.. Mike & I split it. It was cinnamon. I dont know if Ill go with cinnamon again. They have bluemoon on tap there.
Its great.
Ill definitely go back.
I cant wait for this week to be over with. I have to work this weekend too. Then Im going to PA again. Geezus. Ive been the past 2 weekends. Its Easter though. I gotta get a dress or something.
Im out.
Ever since I came back from TN, Ive done nothing but think about the past.
Why cant I just realize its in the past, & thats where it needs to stay.
B/c thinking about how things would work out & what not is driving me crazy.
I hate that fucking saying.. 'if you love something let it go, if it were truly meant to be, itll come back to you.'
Yeeeaaahh, fuck that. B/c its not. & at this point, I dont want it to.
I can only do so much.. & when nothing happens for MONTHS, my only option is to give up.
So I guess this is giving up.
Mike & I are still talking.
He is prolly one of the most difficult males Ive ever encountered.
I dont mean this is a bad way. He is like a challenge. Its fun sometimes.
I just wish I knew where this was going.
We have been talkin since middle of Feb.. & I dont think I can say we are dating. Although, anyone who sees us would say so.
Unless its one of those 'unspoken' understandings.. Where we are & I shouldnt have to question it.
Maybe, b/c Mike is like that.
I dont know. Im just enjoying my time with him.
We always have so much to talk about.
I was reading my friend Danielles journal.. & she said that Myspace upgraded their content?!
What the hell is that shit?? B/c now I cant get on it while at work.
I just thought it had something to do with the IT guy blocking it somehow.. B/c I cant get on AIM Express either.
Im so fuckin bored. I just sit & listen to music all day.
Or get on here.. But there isnt much to do when you have nothing to write about.
Ive already read everyones journals.
Syracuse has been having some exceptional weather lately.
Its warming up.. Im so stoked! I cant wait for it to still be 70 at night.
It felt great last night.
I went to some bars I hadnt been to yet.
PJ Dorseys. Awful Al's. That place rocks b/c you can smoke inside. I bought a cigar last night there.. Mike & I split it. It was cinnamon. I dont know if Ill go with cinnamon again. They have bluemoon on tap there.
Its great.
Ill definitely go back.
I cant wait for this week to be over with. I have to work this weekend too. Then Im going to PA again. Geezus. Ive been the past 2 weekends. Its Easter though. I gotta get a dress or something.
Im out.