What its like when my heart cries.
This pains me to say but it feels like forever ago since Geoff & I broke up.
I have finally accepted the fact that we may never be together again. =(
I believe he was truly 'the one'. I have never felt that way about anyone. & like most first loves, I never will.
Not that I wont try to love someone like that again, but definitely not in the same way. Those were feelings felt just for him.
I dont think Im making much sense. I dont really know what I want to write, just that I have so many thoughts that I need to get out somehow.
Ive started dating a guy named Brian. [Dating is prolly one thing I loathe the most.]
He makes my face hurt from smiling so much. He is smart. Hes italian! We can talk for hrs and he will actually sit there & listen to me. Hes been to places Ive only dreamed of going. [One day though.]
I found out he is a Libra. His bday is 5 days after mine. =) I guess thats why weve gotten along well so far.
He has a twin brother. When they two of them get together, its non stop laughter. They do Arnold impersonations that have me rolling on the floor.
I bought a new car two weeks ago. Its been the car of my dreams & I bought it.
Its a black Hyundai Tiburon GT. 5 speed! Awesome sound system. Its great!!
Ive been gettin things together so I can go back to school. Its looking like Ill be goin to Syracuse University. Im really nervous. =\ I would just forget about school altogether but just the thought of not gettin my degree makes my stomach turn. Id feel like I havent achieved anything in my life.
Im still looking to help children sometime in the future too, so I NEED that degree.
Im really homesick.
I read about my friends having fun, meeting new ppl. I want to be a part of that.
I want to be back in TN, in my old house. In MY room.
I want to be a 5 minute drive from the bestest best friend in the whole wide universe world.
I want to be able to call up my friends in Mboro & say Ill be there in 30.
I want to go to an Overzealous show at Wallstreet & order a 'smurfballs'.
I want to randomly go to Cafe Coco & see all my friends sittin there talkin and laughing.
I want to sit on the steps of the creepy lady statue at the Parthenon on a warm night.
I want to walk downtown, hear the honky tonk music that Ive grown to love.
Moving to NY was a big step in life for me. Ive finally adjusted to this shitty weather, made some awesome friends. I have a job that lets me be financially stable. I pay my own bills and still have money to save.
Im pretty much in one piece.. Except for the big chunk thats missing from my heart. & that chunk is labeled TN.
I have finally accepted the fact that we may never be together again. =(
I believe he was truly 'the one'. I have never felt that way about anyone. & like most first loves, I never will.
Not that I wont try to love someone like that again, but definitely not in the same way. Those were feelings felt just for him.
I dont think Im making much sense. I dont really know what I want to write, just that I have so many thoughts that I need to get out somehow.
Ive started dating a guy named Brian. [Dating is prolly one thing I loathe the most.]
He makes my face hurt from smiling so much. He is smart. Hes italian! We can talk for hrs and he will actually sit there & listen to me. Hes been to places Ive only dreamed of going. [One day though.]
I found out he is a Libra. His bday is 5 days after mine. =) I guess thats why weve gotten along well so far.
He has a twin brother. When they two of them get together, its non stop laughter. They do Arnold impersonations that have me rolling on the floor.
I bought a new car two weeks ago. Its been the car of my dreams & I bought it.
Its a black Hyundai Tiburon GT. 5 speed! Awesome sound system. Its great!!
Ive been gettin things together so I can go back to school. Its looking like Ill be goin to Syracuse University. Im really nervous. =\ I would just forget about school altogether but just the thought of not gettin my degree makes my stomach turn. Id feel like I havent achieved anything in my life.
Im still looking to help children sometime in the future too, so I NEED that degree.
Im really homesick.
I read about my friends having fun, meeting new ppl. I want to be a part of that.
I want to be back in TN, in my old house. In MY room.
I want to be a 5 minute drive from the bestest best friend in the whole wide universe world.
I want to be able to call up my friends in Mboro & say Ill be there in 30.
I want to go to an Overzealous show at Wallstreet & order a 'smurfballs'.
I want to randomly go to Cafe Coco & see all my friends sittin there talkin and laughing.
I want to sit on the steps of the creepy lady statue at the Parthenon on a warm night.
I want to walk downtown, hear the honky tonk music that Ive grown to love.
Moving to NY was a big step in life for me. Ive finally adjusted to this shitty weather, made some awesome friends. I have a job that lets me be financially stable. I pay my own bills and still have money to save.
Im pretty much in one piece.. Except for the big chunk thats missing from my heart. & that chunk is labeled TN.