Whoaa
Ive been thinking a lot. & im sick of this. I always do something wrong. Or mess up. & its getting me nowhere. & the fact im involved in all of this drama is not helping. Im not mentioning any names, & for the ones that are closed to me know who im talking about. But yah, this is why ive been kind of weird...
So I went out with this kidd. & he was absolutely amazing. Everything he did & how he could do the littlest things & everything would be okay. He just seemed... perfect. & i know nobody is perfect, But he was close enough. Well, i was absolutely in love with him. & the happiest ive been. & like a week later, everything went blurry & life seemed pointless. Really pointless. Im not one to cry over people, but i did over him. & so i went out with someone else a little after that. & i knew i still liked the other kid, how could i not? & just the other day me and him broke up. We broke up with eachother @ the same time, because of the same reasons. He wasnt over his ex girlfriend as i wasnt over my ex boyfriend. & i just hung out with the boi i likea lot. & i cant even hang out with him without feeling torn. Looking at him, yah ill smile. But i miss him. & ive decided ill wait for him. Ive never been this attached. & maybe its pathetic. But i cant help it.
I cant control it. & i hate it.
& ive been having more problems with people than ever. Half of the people, idont even know. & my friends say the gurls that are mad at me are just jealous. Maybeits true. Maybe they are. Afterall, their mad at me for dating the people i dated. Their jealous i got to date them & they didnt. & usually i dont care what people think. But its bothering me more than ever. I just dont know what to think. Or to do. & im falling apart.
Maybe i am just selfish. Cause i want him all to myself.
So go ahead, call me selfish. I'll admit to it. & i dont care. Ive been taking stress out on people i care about. & i really dont mean it. & when im mad i wont admit to not meaning it. I'll say things i dont mean. & they dont realize.
I dont think before i speak.
& this stupid drama. Believe what you want. Afterall, it is what you heard. & even if i deny it, you'll still believe the rumor. So whats the point in asking me? Youd think of all people id know if i did something or not, if its about me. Some things people believe are just ridiculous. & it makes me laugh how someone could make such lame things up. So go ahead, get me involved in drama & spread rumors about you. Its just giving me all of the attention you crave. But oh well, thats your loss now isnt it.
Lifes too tough. You can never win.
So I went out with this kidd. & he was absolutely amazing. Everything he did & how he could do the littlest things & everything would be okay. He just seemed... perfect. & i know nobody is perfect, But he was close enough. Well, i was absolutely in love with him. & the happiest ive been. & like a week later, everything went blurry & life seemed pointless. Really pointless. Im not one to cry over people, but i did over him. & so i went out with someone else a little after that. & i knew i still liked the other kid, how could i not? & just the other day me and him broke up. We broke up with eachother @ the same time, because of the same reasons. He wasnt over his ex girlfriend as i wasnt over my ex boyfriend. & i just hung out with the boi i likea lot. & i cant even hang out with him without feeling torn. Looking at him, yah ill smile. But i miss him. & ive decided ill wait for him. Ive never been this attached. & maybe its pathetic. But i cant help it.
I cant control it. & i hate it.
& ive been having more problems with people than ever. Half of the people, idont even know. & my friends say the gurls that are mad at me are just jealous. Maybeits true. Maybe they are. Afterall, their mad at me for dating the people i dated. Their jealous i got to date them & they didnt. & usually i dont care what people think. But its bothering me more than ever. I just dont know what to think. Or to do. & im falling apart.
Maybe i am just selfish. Cause i want him all to myself.
So go ahead, call me selfish. I'll admit to it. & i dont care. Ive been taking stress out on people i care about. & i really dont mean it. & when im mad i wont admit to not meaning it. I'll say things i dont mean. & they dont realize.
I dont think before i speak.
& this stupid drama. Believe what you want. Afterall, it is what you heard. & even if i deny it, you'll still believe the rumor. So whats the point in asking me? Youd think of all people id know if i did something or not, if its about me. Some things people believe are just ridiculous. & it makes me laugh how someone could make such lame things up. So go ahead, get me involved in drama & spread rumors about you. Its just giving me all of the attention you crave. But oh well, thats your loss now isnt it.
Lifes too tough. You can never win.