Once in a lifetime ...
Where did we go from here? What happened to the old us? The old us where we would promise to be by each other’s side forever... we made promises to grow old together, to never let anyone harm us, because harming one of us was like harming the other. I believed in everything that you once told me. I believed we would last. You were the most important thing to me in my life… no, you were my life. You meant practically everything to me.
Was everything you told me in the past all just lies now? Did you make promises to me so you could break them? All those who had hurt me in the past never left such a huge impact on me like you did. All those who had hurt me in the past never created such a huge wound for it to heal by itself like you did. Seeing as how things are going for you right now, it seems like we can never be the same anymore. You and I both have changed. For the better or for the worse... no one knows. One thing I do know is that it seems as if I’m out of your life…maybe I’m not important to you like I thought I was.
Every word I have told you before, I had truly meant it with my heart mind and soul. Everything I told you, never once did I lie to you. They were nothing but the truth. Unfortunately, if you asked me to repeat those words again to you, I don’t know if I can say them from the heart. Because this time, I’d be lying to you. The words that would be coming out of my mouth would have no more meaning to both you and I.
Is it best to just forget what we had and move onto our separate lives? Would you rather prefer that? Because if that was it, then I’m willing to grant your wish even if it pains me for the rest of my life. Because remember what I once said? Your happiness is mine, and your sorrow is mine. But if your happiness contains me out of your life, then I’ll get out just for you.
I never thought you’d be the person to make me cry. Thousands have made me cry, but never you. I guess there really is a first for everything eh? Do questions of us run through your mind every night before you go to bed like it does for me? What about crying yourself to sleep?
I don’t know why I’m making a huge deal out of this when I experienced it so many times before… this is just like any other time someone has betrayed me. But I guess it’s like what I said before…you were practically my life. I was able to call you my other half before, but now it seems like you’re a complete stranger to me. I don’t know you like how I did all these years ago. So tell me, is it goodbye from here?
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/sigh ... just something i wrote to help calm my feelings .. x_x" unfortunately for me, its not really working. i just feel like curling into a corner right now and cry to myself .. even if i promised myself to never cry anymore..
Was everything you told me in the past all just lies now? Did you make promises to me so you could break them? All those who had hurt me in the past never left such a huge impact on me like you did. All those who had hurt me in the past never created such a huge wound for it to heal by itself like you did. Seeing as how things are going for you right now, it seems like we can never be the same anymore. You and I both have changed. For the better or for the worse... no one knows. One thing I do know is that it seems as if I’m out of your life…maybe I’m not important to you like I thought I was.
Every word I have told you before, I had truly meant it with my heart mind and soul. Everything I told you, never once did I lie to you. They were nothing but the truth. Unfortunately, if you asked me to repeat those words again to you, I don’t know if I can say them from the heart. Because this time, I’d be lying to you. The words that would be coming out of my mouth would have no more meaning to both you and I.
Is it best to just forget what we had and move onto our separate lives? Would you rather prefer that? Because if that was it, then I’m willing to grant your wish even if it pains me for the rest of my life. Because remember what I once said? Your happiness is mine, and your sorrow is mine. But if your happiness contains me out of your life, then I’ll get out just for you.
I never thought you’d be the person to make me cry. Thousands have made me cry, but never you. I guess there really is a first for everything eh? Do questions of us run through your mind every night before you go to bed like it does for me? What about crying yourself to sleep?
I don’t know why I’m making a huge deal out of this when I experienced it so many times before… this is just like any other time someone has betrayed me. But I guess it’s like what I said before…you were practically my life. I was able to call you my other half before, but now it seems like you’re a complete stranger to me. I don’t know you like how I did all these years ago. So tell me, is it goodbye from here?
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/sigh ... just something i wrote to help calm my feelings .. x_x" unfortunately for me, its not really working. i just feel like curling into a corner right now and cry to myself .. even if i promised myself to never cry anymore..