'Night thoughts'

[x_forever_me_x]

I miss you so much. I hate the fact that it's never been the same between us since. I've been so stupid, because in fact now, the thing I care about the most is that I never see you and I never know where you are and we never talk properly, even though we're in the same place. I'm over what happened, because at least now I know (except I don't know, really, because I think you're lying...) but that doesn't even matter so much. The thing I hate most is the way that when you're talking about something or commenting on something or laughing at something that's happening and other people are there, you turn away from me; you look past me, or through me, and communicate with other people, as if I'm not there. That's what I really can't stand.
At least now I know but I want things to go back to the way they were. (In a way). If anything was going to happen, it would've happened naturally, and I should've just left it alone, I should've got up and walked away as soon as I got an inkling that you were going to do anything like that, in that situation. And things could've been so different.
It gets easier, but not easy. Where are you even at now? Well I don't care, I just don't care, even after everything you've done, I don't care, just come back to me. Please.