Now *I* get to update *MY* Journal.

[x_firstxkiss_x]

Mmmkay....Drama.....lmao Anyway its ending here.. NO MORE PEOPLE LORD!!!! LMAO Wel I didnt get to go to GatlinBurge with Dustin cause bob got sick last minute. :( Sucks lol But I've spent alot of time with dustin and I know alot of you dont want to hear it but Im growing to him. Same on his side. Alot of things have happened too. (And no not that

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You could have told me that a long time ago.

[bigdaddymuncy]

This shouldnt be too long I dont have very much to say to you anymore I've pretty much drained myself of everything.....but all you had to do was tell me this a long time ago and I could have most likely taken this alot easier.....and with the triangle thing.......yeah I knew it was there.....I seen it Im not stupid I've been in enough of them to know the signs.....but I figured that its just a phaze that it will change after you've had your fun....because I've been there.....sitting in their bed one day and just BOOM it all just comes back and hits you so hard that you dont even know what just happened.....and you get that empty feeling....and flashbacks start coming back....and then you've realized you screwed up....I've been there done that.....I guess it was just a little too late for that......but if I recall Chelsea......that week we stayed together well 4 days......4th of July....god I loved that....(the fact that Im almost starved was not fun lmao) but other than that I loved spending that time with you....yeah there were times you got mad at me and started getting fussy but I looked over them and just enjoyed what time I had left with the best thing that I have ever had....when we were laying in the bed together and talking I thought that we were going to get back together and that you were going to stay with Pam until I graduated and then I would wait on you and so on.....and Im going to apoligize for that night....for being so forward..you know what Im talking about...Im sorry for all that I was stupid and I regret it....but if its ok with you I would like to talk to you one whole day just to talk...as friends....and get all this shit over with before I let go completely.....because I hurt every day......not as much but thats because I stay busy I dont stay in the house anymore and I go to Tabbi's....pretty much what you have been doing but you would go to Dustin's and it works....I dont blame you for it Chelsea.....the hard thing about all of this is that I still love and miss you....like today at football practice.....people where asking about you and who was the girl that I took to prom......and it hurt me to say your name and to tell them that we have been broken up since the beginning of June......Oh and Chelsea.....you might be right about its for the best....but I've been in your shoes....your situations before.....it took me 3 months remember......so all in all it might backfire on us.....maybe maybe not.....its according on how dedicated you are on giving up on someone.....(Im not the person to give up easily) so you never know.....it might all work out for the best....and as for the Tabbi thing.....you're right she says she loves me and I know it....but its hard to BELIEVE IT.....you know.....my past and now....its just hard to believe someone *new* who says it to me....and Chelsea.....I want to tell you that it takes real guts to admit that you've done wrong....it does.....it took me 3 months to swallow my pride....but I respect you for that....and in your eyes I may deserve more than what you can give me.....but in MY eyes you can give me more than I deserve.....You say me and Tabbi will be good for each other......you're probably right on that one.....we'll be around each other alot but we'll never get to be a "couple" for awhile now and I will never love a girl as much as I did you.....yeah you can say Megan Sarah whatever.....but I have never cried over a girl as much as I have you....I've never felt so much pain from a girl until you......Im not saying this to make you feel bad Im saying it because its true.....it may take me awhile to get over you but Im trying......it will be awhile I know that.....but once again all Im asking is just for me to talk to you on the phone.......or in person it doesnt matter to me....I just want ONE more day with you is all Im asking for....because it will probably be our last......and if you give us that day....I'll try my best to look at you as just a person because Im not ready to be your friend.....its too painful....but Im going to get off here now and try to find something to do....I love you Chelsea

Iaeger Cubs #84,
Brad

PS: This was acutally long lol I didnt expect to go on like that but ohh well you type what you think lol

Re: You could have told me that a long time ago.

[x_firstxkiss_x]

well okay, sorry that I didnt tell you that. damn.