> Jamie
I’ve been waiting so long for the day to come that I could hold him in my arms and claim him my own. And just as I feel it arriving, he turns his back on me without a second glance, throwing my fucking heart on the floor and stepping on it as he leaves.
I feel so rejected. I keep telling myself that everything will be okay. And I know I am only denying the obvious. I sat this afternoon with my head between my knees, sulking. I tried so hard to be something I wasn’t, all for him. I wanted him to fill my emptiness, drown me until I felt as if I were spilling over the edges. Now everything seems so far away and I don’t know where he is. I didn’t want to beg him. But I felt weak enough to fall to my knees and plead. I hope he is happy with the mess he has left and the giant void he has gunshot into my aching heart.
..A kid with hair as cool as that was always out of my league
This is a joke, yes? Yes. It is. Over and out x
<3
I feel so rejected. I keep telling myself that everything will be okay. And I know I am only denying the obvious. I sat this afternoon with my head between my knees, sulking. I tried so hard to be something I wasn’t, all for him. I wanted him to fill my emptiness, drown me until I felt as if I were spilling over the edges. Now everything seems so far away and I don’t know where he is. I didn’t want to beg him. But I felt weak enough to fall to my knees and plead. I hope he is happy with the mess he has left and the giant void he has gunshot into my aching heart.
..A kid with hair as cool as that was always out of my league
This is a joke, yes? Yes. It is. Over and out x
<3