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[x_emo_star]

so its october.
and as usual, im alone.
kind of ironic really because october is my favorite month.
i've never been with jon in october.
and i never will.
everything's a mess, im such a wreck

on the outside, i seem okay.
but inside, im dead.
i am jaded, and hurt.
i dont think anything will ever be the same.

you hurt me, are you even sorry?

i wish i could explain to everyone why i seem so angry, and its just a hard situation, some people should think about what they do before they mess up a whole bunch of lives. but sometimes, when its over, its just over....

this is a new me.
im starting over.
from scratch.
doing what i want.
seeing who i wanna see.
everything you didnt want me to do, i'll do it.
just in spite.

im bitter, i know.

but.... "im about to see a million things i thought i'd never see before and i, im about to do all the things i dreamed of, and i, i dont even miss you at all"

lets hang out?!

and on a better note, look at this adorable pic of me and steph from over the summer:


and heres one of the recent me....i HATE my hair. argggg