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i just had one of the worst dreams ever. it started out with ryan and i dating, and he had just come back from a long trip. he didn't like something, because he freaked out and started punching everything. i kicked him out and my mom came and he tried to beat his way in while i tried packing up all my things. his shrink came over on a horse and i told her he was a fucking lunatic. so apparently i had a shitload of huge male friends who helped me and libby get out. but not before dumping ryan when he tried to come back with a bunch of his friends and baseball bats. this theme continues for a very long time, him trying to fucking kill me and me running away. i woke up crying and fucking shaking. im scared to go back to sleep; that dream was so real. so scary. fuck this.