I'm waiting for you're face to fade ||Faster and faster each day

[x_dr3aming4u_x]

It's been a while since I've wrote in here.

I don't really know why I don't write in here anymore. Hmm. Maybe I'll try to get it back on track.

You know, now that I think about it. Maybe I don't update as much because I actually have a life now. Hmmm. That could very well be it.

Things In Life That Have Been Goin Down Yo:

• Dad &&me are not exactly getting along. Ever since I moved in with him, he's been going crazzy. I seriously believe that I'm too much for him to handle. His overprotective theories are really starting to make me wanna move back in with my mother. As bad as this sounds..I really do hate him sometimes. &&I feel horrible about saying it, but he needs to chill out.
• Mom&&me are awesome! =) I never really thought me and her would be this close after everything. But I think that since I'm not around with her as much anymore, things got better.  I realized that I need her, even when I thought she wasn't the best person in the world.  She understands a lot that's been going on in my life. We talk about everything, and that's the relationship that I've always wanted with her.
• My sister...hmm. Lately, I don't know what's been going on. But I've decided that I can't tell her anything anymore. She's been telling my Dad everything that I've told her...and I thought me and her were starting to have a stronger relationship. &&I guess I was wrong.
• Since school started, I swear on my life my personality has changed. All of my friends have told me they absolutely love the change too! I feel great, and I'm finally happy.  Personally, this change happened at the end of the summer, when I realized that I can't live in a black hole forever. &&my prayers were answered when something really bad happened to me. The Cause: Drinking, && therapy. The Effect: a whole newwww perspective on life.  In a way I think God gave me a second chance at life. I've taken it.
• School isn't so bad, but I've got to get my grades up yo fosho fosho.
• My super duper sweet boifriend &&I are still together. Were goin on a month noww...I love him, and the way he makes me feel. He gives me butterflies crazzzy stylle. =)&&I didn't think i would be able to get that feeling back since umm..what's that Loser's name again? Oh,,I dunno. I forgot.O well.
• Yesterday I was at the store with my Mama...and I saw a cute little heart shaped sucker. I got it for him..but he can't eat it. Sorry baby. Fo shizzle...my nizzle dizzle. =]
• Robert called me yesterday night. &&Last Friday too. It's amazing how he's calling me all of the sudden...you know since I have talked or seen him in almost 3 months. &&he knows I have a boifriend too. My theory...He's either jealous...or he has nothing better to do..so he's bothering me. Poor Boi. Sympathy bitch. No...Now that I think about it. I really don't sympathize. You had you're chance there loser. I'm so sorry you missed out on the 2 years I was chasing after you're bitchass.
•  Juan **My boifriend** was with me on the friday that bitchass called me. He told me the next time he calls and he's with me...he's gonna answer the phone and tell him not to call me anymore. Turns out, bitchass called me last night, but Juan wasn't around. DAMN THE WORLD!! BUT BUT BUT...I told Juan about it...and and and here are his exact words:  "If he calls you again, I want you to give me his number..and I will call him and tell him not to call you ever again or I will beat his ass with my bat in my trunk." HAHAHAHAHAHA. That's my baby.  =D  Much Love for him. He's never met Robert, and he hates him for everything he did to me. Now that's a good guy.
• I love my car. I drive all the time...everyday everywhere. Uhhh...I just love looking out my window and going..."Yup yup..that's my car. That's right. MINE."
• Christmas is coming. PRESENTS. YAY!
• Larry (my Mom's boifriend) has mega moolah. Hopefully that means more presents. *gasps&&covers mouth with hands* Omg that's so selfish. I'm so bad. Haha.
• I've been drinking soo much Starbucks. I love that place. I could live on that shit yo.
• I'am now offically addicted to "Myspace".
• I've been writing poems again. I wrote 2 recently. One about my disorder. The other about Robert and how much I truly hate him now.
• I'am proud to say...I weighed 140-145pounds in the month of August. Now...today November 12...I weigh 122 pounds. I have lost over 40 pounds in 3 months. My goal weight: 115. I feel good, but I would feel better when I reach my goal.
• I've been talking to Randy...and were still good friends. I think he's awesome, and I regret not seeing that when we were together. But, I know he can find someone that will make him happy because he deserves it. He even told me that I have changed greatly. I love when people say that. It makes me feel good. As if I'am a better person for who I'am today. =)
• Overall...Life is Good.
• &&I Love Juan.
• If you read this Heather..I miss you. Call me someday...whatda ya think?

This entry..is indeed very long. To those that read this...I appreciate you taking the time out of you're life to actually read what has been going on in my life. Thnx.

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