And I feel all this pain..I've stuffed it down...but it's back again. And I lay here all alone...
I just don't want to live anymore.
Last week I held 8 pills in my hand, and I would have taken them all but my Dad inturrupted me.
I don't know what to do anymoreee...
People say things get better in the long run, but I'm not willing to live long enough to see that.. if it means living like I'am now.
Everything hurts...especially my heart.
"Let these tears of mine fall down. Let them fall down like rain. Let these black clouds of thunder take away all the reds and all the greys that I have bled in my life. For I bleed forever..without a notice without a care..from you."