apox! upon your house upon your family
Alright. The wind down from a borderline excruciating night. lol.
SO much tension, that noone had mentioned until yesterday, on the table now, and here we go for a round of subtle confrontation, and hopefully a happy ending, although I'm not counting on it. Ugh I was SO pissed after practice yesterday.
In need of some of that good old fashion metal that only Anesthia can deliver. So I hit the Sunshine with KC, met up with Mo and Michelle ( de ja vu anyone?). 'sthesia KILLED, the crowd was so unattractive it was unbelievable. Next up was "Turn Of The Screw" They were sick, posthardcore/dnacey-ish screamo. I liked them lots. The crowd HATED THEM. I bought merch, chatted it up with their merch guy, who was super cool, and talked tattoos with him, I guess he runs a shop in Long Beach, he had an oldschool movie scene portrait of Nosferatu on his arm, it was GORGEOUS.
Static-X was.....disappointing. Something, I'm not used to from them. It was sad. Just not the same without Tripp. Yeah, I know he was a pedophile, but he was my FAVORITE part of their live show. And their lights were like an epileptic seizure waiting to happen. I hung out at the back with the merch guy for most of their set, and talked to the cool guy who works at sunshine...who has a name I'm sure. He was teasing me about not having anything to pass out.
So after the show, Kc and I, thoroughly sweaty, and tired and reeking of pot ( SO GROSS) hit Frontier.
One of the most beautiful guys I've seen in a long time was ahead of us in line. Short almost faux mohawk, black and red striped dye, I don't know, he was gorgeous. And i've become so retarded timid about guys lately, I almost didn't talk to him. KC made me. The second I saw him I was like WOW he is NOT from around here lol. AND I was right, band boys from Cali. called Skid Throat, playing a bunch of shows with Caustic Lye.
NM boys = mostly ugly lol.
I was still disgruntled about a number of things, so I sat with my food and notebook, started editing the song's lyrics STN had been working on earlier, Bobby came in and talked with me briefly. I miss him tons. But it's not like either of us really has time to hang out and catch up. But last summer I definitely considered him one of the best friends I had. Now....well now my friends pretty much consist of Kc, Katy, and Matt. And I'm getting Katy-itis...and LONGING to leave here for the east coast. Or to hit the road, I want out O here.
School is okay, I mean I like it, I'm good at it, but at the same time I am so much less enthused about it than I was at the start. Ms. Natasha is cool and all, but I get the feeling that once I'm done in february it won't be difficult to say goodbye to these kids, and probably never will hang out with them post-graduation, or even after school hours.
SO continuing to be pissed, I started texting people to see if ANYONE was awake and up for I don't know, anything. I was craving some sort of physical contact with another human being. So I ended up at Nolan's house around 2AM watching TV, being awkward, falling asleep. I don't know. I felt weird. He's a great guy and all.......but..........but I don't know, I was suddenly not interested in anything at all. I mean I was like, yeah I'll sleep here because I don't want to go home, but um....all my clothes are staying on, and I'm not really into the cuddling thing lol. It was a whole lot of dumb. And I got a decent night's rest, but I wished I was someplace else. But I have to keep my distance before I somehow bumble into breaking my heart, because I KNOW what's going to happen in the next few months, and there's no point getting attached to someone again when you KNOW they leaving.
*sigh* SO here I am, home, in the same clothes I slept in, not taking a shower yet, staring at my computer screen, listening to Mix FOr YOu by Me vol. II....sounds like sophomore year. sounds familiar.
Sounds like I need to find my way again.
SO much tension, that noone had mentioned until yesterday, on the table now, and here we go for a round of subtle confrontation, and hopefully a happy ending, although I'm not counting on it. Ugh I was SO pissed after practice yesterday.
In need of some of that good old fashion metal that only Anesthia can deliver. So I hit the Sunshine with KC, met up with Mo and Michelle ( de ja vu anyone?). 'sthesia KILLED, the crowd was so unattractive it was unbelievable. Next up was "Turn Of The Screw" They were sick, posthardcore/dnacey-ish screamo. I liked them lots. The crowd HATED THEM. I bought merch, chatted it up with their merch guy, who was super cool, and talked tattoos with him, I guess he runs a shop in Long Beach, he had an oldschool movie scene portrait of Nosferatu on his arm, it was GORGEOUS.
Static-X was.....disappointing. Something, I'm not used to from them. It was sad. Just not the same without Tripp. Yeah, I know he was a pedophile, but he was my FAVORITE part of their live show. And their lights were like an epileptic seizure waiting to happen. I hung out at the back with the merch guy for most of their set, and talked to the cool guy who works at sunshine...who has a name I'm sure. He was teasing me about not having anything to pass out.
So after the show, Kc and I, thoroughly sweaty, and tired and reeking of pot ( SO GROSS) hit Frontier.
One of the most beautiful guys I've seen in a long time was ahead of us in line. Short almost faux mohawk, black and red striped dye, I don't know, he was gorgeous. And i've become so retarded timid about guys lately, I almost didn't talk to him. KC made me. The second I saw him I was like WOW he is NOT from around here lol. AND I was right, band boys from Cali. called Skid Throat, playing a bunch of shows with Caustic Lye.
NM boys = mostly ugly lol.
I was still disgruntled about a number of things, so I sat with my food and notebook, started editing the song's lyrics STN had been working on earlier, Bobby came in and talked with me briefly. I miss him tons. But it's not like either of us really has time to hang out and catch up. But last summer I definitely considered him one of the best friends I had. Now....well now my friends pretty much consist of Kc, Katy, and Matt. And I'm getting Katy-itis...and LONGING to leave here for the east coast. Or to hit the road, I want out O here.
School is okay, I mean I like it, I'm good at it, but at the same time I am so much less enthused about it than I was at the start. Ms. Natasha is cool and all, but I get the feeling that once I'm done in february it won't be difficult to say goodbye to these kids, and probably never will hang out with them post-graduation, or even after school hours.
SO continuing to be pissed, I started texting people to see if ANYONE was awake and up for I don't know, anything. I was craving some sort of physical contact with another human being. So I ended up at Nolan's house around 2AM watching TV, being awkward, falling asleep. I don't know. I felt weird. He's a great guy and all.......but..........but I don't know, I was suddenly not interested in anything at all. I mean I was like, yeah I'll sleep here because I don't want to go home, but um....all my clothes are staying on, and I'm not really into the cuddling thing lol. It was a whole lot of dumb. And I got a decent night's rest, but I wished I was someplace else. But I have to keep my distance before I somehow bumble into breaking my heart, because I KNOW what's going to happen in the next few months, and there's no point getting attached to someone again when you KNOW they leaving.
*sigh* SO here I am, home, in the same clothes I slept in, not taking a shower yet, staring at my computer screen, listening to Mix FOr YOu by Me vol. II....sounds like sophomore year. sounds familiar.
Sounds like I need to find my way again.