and now it's so clear to me, I should have seen this coming
Back at the beginning...and we both chose to take this road to the same place but at a different pace, and this time around...I won't spend my nights, lying awake at night. "
I'm so painfully exhausted. I have start taking care of my body again before I get sick.
I cannot possibley afford to get sick before thursday. so I'm home today. trying to catch up on water, and sleep, and unpacking my life.
I didn't go to NIN last night, I made KC. But I know that is was the right choice, because...well, while you might think you're getting stepped on, I'd much rather spend time working on my life goal, than sitting at the Pavillion thinking how I have one week, OH GOD only one week, and one practice, and OH LORD we won't be ready, because I wouldn't have enjoyed myself at all....just would have worried myself sick.
Instead we got to go through our a set a few more times, jammed on something new, made fun of the Alibi article on us. coughed up a lung, got to see Carl, and felt somehow better.
So I ended up at the Launchpad after, my heart SWELLING after watching Brandtson, singing every word, getting smiles from the whole band, they were all so happy that I knew the words....how could I not sing along? I love them so much, and just couldn't stop smiling. And again...I felt a little better for a while.
I stayed out too late with Evan again, okay so we're retarded, noone has to say anything there, but christ, I'm going to miss him so much when he moves back to the east coast.
My bats are sore, but look so beautiful now that I got them touched up. I'm coughing again. I need to take care of so many things today. I'm sorry for every responsibility I've been avoiding, it's not fair to anyone.
I'm so painfully exhausted. I have start taking care of my body again before I get sick.
I cannot possibley afford to get sick before thursday. so I'm home today. trying to catch up on water, and sleep, and unpacking my life.
I didn't go to NIN last night, I made KC. But I know that is was the right choice, because...well, while you might think you're getting stepped on, I'd much rather spend time working on my life goal, than sitting at the Pavillion thinking how I have one week, OH GOD only one week, and one practice, and OH LORD we won't be ready, because I wouldn't have enjoyed myself at all....just would have worried myself sick.
Instead we got to go through our a set a few more times, jammed on something new, made fun of the Alibi article on us. coughed up a lung, got to see Carl, and felt somehow better.
So I ended up at the Launchpad after, my heart SWELLING after watching Brandtson, singing every word, getting smiles from the whole band, they were all so happy that I knew the words....how could I not sing along? I love them so much, and just couldn't stop smiling. And again...I felt a little better for a while.
I stayed out too late with Evan again, okay so we're retarded, noone has to say anything there, but christ, I'm going to miss him so much when he moves back to the east coast.
My bats are sore, but look so beautiful now that I got them touched up. I'm coughing again. I need to take care of so many things today. I'm sorry for every responsibility I've been avoiding, it's not fair to anyone.