Is this what I get?
Why is it that EVERY FUCKING TIME I think things are perfect and nothing can go wrong, something seems to start to fall apart or go wrong in some way.
And of all the things in my life why does it have to be this?
Why couldn't today be special?
Why couldn't it be a normal day?
I'm so TIRED of drama and emotions. Been there, done that, TOO MANY FUCKING TIMES......
But I love her. I really do.
It's just so hard to care sometimes, especially after the things I've been through.
It's so hard to be human after the way I was stripped of all that made me human.
She's made me so happy. She's the best thing to ever happen to me. I just don't know how I can express it anymore than I have already. I love her and that will never change. Why does she think it has?
God, sometimes I really hate myself. I hate myself for falling so hard in the past. I hate myself for not healing fast enough. I hate myself for always being the cause of all that goes wrong.
I love her. If after 7 whole months, she doubts that, or she thinks that I don't anymore, what am I to do?
I wish I could take back my past so that I could have given her my all instead of waste it away on the fantasy that turned nightmare.
What am I to do? Why can't I feel? Why can't we just be perfect like we should be?
And of all the things in my life why does it have to be this?
Why couldn't today be special?
Why couldn't it be a normal day?
I'm so TIRED of drama and emotions. Been there, done that, TOO MANY FUCKING TIMES......
But I love her. I really do.
It's just so hard to care sometimes, especially after the things I've been through.
It's so hard to be human after the way I was stripped of all that made me human.
She's made me so happy. She's the best thing to ever happen to me. I just don't know how I can express it anymore than I have already. I love her and that will never change. Why does she think it has?
God, sometimes I really hate myself. I hate myself for falling so hard in the past. I hate myself for not healing fast enough. I hate myself for always being the cause of all that goes wrong.
I love her. If after 7 whole months, she doubts that, or she thinks that I don't anymore, what am I to do?
I wish I could take back my past so that I could have given her my all instead of waste it away on the fantasy that turned nightmare.
What am I to do? Why can't I feel? Why can't we just be perfect like we should be?