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my neck and head hurt... im miserable today and i cant even begin to understand why. maybe its a combination of a lot of things.
i miss my mom and sister a lot more recently.
im not going to do well this semester.
my rucca's gone.
i don't see anyone aside from ian, bo and derek (not that i dont love them any less....).
i havent gone ANYWHERE in almost 10 months. TEN MONTHS. i cant handle this place for another month.
my health seems to be waning for some reason.
ive been questioning mortality i guess in liu of recent news.
things with bo are constantly flip flopping- it can never be good or bad. just one extreme to the next. its making me a nervous wreck.
im not sleeping at night.
i need a lot of things... mostly attention and i dont know why exactly. i get new clothes though... and furniture. i need new friends. or old ones.
and im tired of people hating/disliking me for things i didnt do. i think thats really what has me under the weather today (aside from my head/neck ache)... people accusing me of making things up and never being happy with situations. i just feel so drained from all of this. assumsptions i think may have caused a lot of trouble in the long run.
he makes me happy but i cant help but feel sad at the sametime. better yet - when i feel like myself i dont feel sad... i need to feel like myself. maybe then i wont need him so much anymore.
i miss my mom and sister a lot more recently.
im not going to do well this semester.
my rucca's gone.
i don't see anyone aside from ian, bo and derek (not that i dont love them any less....).
i havent gone ANYWHERE in almost 10 months. TEN MONTHS. i cant handle this place for another month.
my health seems to be waning for some reason.
ive been questioning mortality i guess in liu of recent news.
things with bo are constantly flip flopping- it can never be good or bad. just one extreme to the next. its making me a nervous wreck.
im not sleeping at night.
i need a lot of things... mostly attention and i dont know why exactly. i get new clothes though... and furniture. i need new friends. or old ones.
and im tired of people hating/disliking me for things i didnt do. i think thats really what has me under the weather today (aside from my head/neck ache)... people accusing me of making things up and never being happy with situations. i just feel so drained from all of this. assumsptions i think may have caused a lot of trouble in the long run.
he makes me happy but i cant help but feel sad at the sametime. better yet - when i feel like myself i dont feel sad... i need to feel like myself. maybe then i wont need him so much anymore.