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all in all the summer wasn't a complete waste. i mean- i stopped REALLY habits (and had a lesson taught to me in the process), i got a better job, school is going to happen this semester (however my schedule is gonna blow), i became close to a few important people (derek, maddy, rucca, michael, and a few others), grew an incredible attachment to the one person whos always on my mind (and learned a lot of things through him and what im capable of doing for myself and him), and mostly that time is ticking ever more swiftly this year. it's already been almost a YEAR since i turned 21. and it seems as if it should only be february. i don't understand the concept of time so much anymore. i know it makes an iky feeling in my tummy when i think about how im going to go to class, work and still manage to see bo. that scares me a lot. i dont know what imma do when i dont get to see him every few days. it makes me sick and anxious. actually my anxiety is REALLY bad today because of that and i guess school and the fact that time is scary.
i saw erica over the weekend. and it wasn't too bad. i hate the fact it's the way it is. but at the sametime i don't appreciate people trying to poison my OTHER friends agaisnt me for soemthing that doesn't involve ANY of them. it only breeds hositilities and resentment. id like to be her friend again but where do we start from here?
my friends make me happy- without them im lost. im planning a trip to somewhere for my birthday. athens to see rucca maybe? pittsburgh maybe? morgantown? cleveland? anyway about it- a steakhouse/strip place is what i desire to ring my twenty second year. (yeah im still a vegetarian......but i can eat steak fries)
i get cable this weekend. that means---- pictures and WoW.
im smitten today... i think he can tell by the way i cant tear my eyes away from his.
i saw erica over the weekend. and it wasn't too bad. i hate the fact it's the way it is. but at the sametime i don't appreciate people trying to poison my OTHER friends agaisnt me for soemthing that doesn't involve ANY of them. it only breeds hositilities and resentment. id like to be her friend again but where do we start from here?
my friends make me happy- without them im lost. im planning a trip to somewhere for my birthday. athens to see rucca maybe? pittsburgh maybe? morgantown? cleveland? anyway about it- a steakhouse/strip place is what i desire to ring my twenty second year. (yeah im still a vegetarian......but i can eat steak fries)
i get cable this weekend. that means---- pictures and WoW.
im smitten today... i think he can tell by the way i cant tear my eyes away from his.