it's cashed.
i quit ellen's- for a lot of reasons. mostly because she made me cry three days in a row. i can't handle her constantly making me feel like shit and feeling so much better than me- she can be a HORRIBLE person. then again- those who know her- know this and that she isn't a very nice lady in general. however- i do have another job already. so that's ok.
my uncle filled up my gas tank and gave me money to live on for the next few weeks. my mom paid my phone bill. and theyr eboth gonna get me an apartmemt this month as soon as i find one. so- things are piecing together slowly and my break down isn't as intense as it was earlier this week. my uncle is also gonna help me fix my car.
i spent the past two evenings with ian and erica. it's SO refreshing. i feel myself again... and trully alive when im with those two. i love my new friends, but i miss the two people who mean the most to me. it was excellant. "astolomy is a class...." HAHAHA.... amaretto and summersville at 3 am = a blessing that was MUCH needed. it's so weird going back and forth between my groups of friends. its like i even change myself for them. i guess that could be bad but i kinda like it. i just feel MUCH better after this evening.
tomorrow is going to start whenever the fuck i feel like waking up- the dmv- perhaps the gym- and forrest time with ian- then a blank spot of time- then huntington :)
i REALLY REALLY REALLY miss my boyfriend. i haven't really seen him in two days and i feel stupid saying i miss him after such a short period of time. i saw him for maybe 20 minutes today but it's not very much when i'm used to spending so much time with him... 3 days is a long time for me... and it'll be even longer prolly than that but maybe thats good. it'll give me time to see everyone else by myself. and for a lil alone time that i don't really want. i couldn't ask for much more from him right now and i'm incredibly happy with what this is becoming.
i got REALLY sick tonight and i'm bruising a LOT and really badly... my head hurts and im SUPER tired (whic his REALLY unlike me) and my racing thoughts are back... i wish my uterus didn't hurt for no reason and that i wasn't sick to my tummy still. this is no fun :(
and with quitting ellen's i'm almost sure i'll lose at least a little weight.
anything new with you guys that you haven't updated about?
my uncle filled up my gas tank and gave me money to live on for the next few weeks. my mom paid my phone bill. and theyr eboth gonna get me an apartmemt this month as soon as i find one. so- things are piecing together slowly and my break down isn't as intense as it was earlier this week. my uncle is also gonna help me fix my car.
i spent the past two evenings with ian and erica. it's SO refreshing. i feel myself again... and trully alive when im with those two. i love my new friends, but i miss the two people who mean the most to me. it was excellant. "astolomy is a class...." HAHAHA.... amaretto and summersville at 3 am = a blessing that was MUCH needed. it's so weird going back and forth between my groups of friends. its like i even change myself for them. i guess that could be bad but i kinda like it. i just feel MUCH better after this evening.
tomorrow is going to start whenever the fuck i feel like waking up- the dmv- perhaps the gym- and forrest time with ian- then a blank spot of time- then huntington :)
i REALLY REALLY REALLY miss my boyfriend. i haven't really seen him in two days and i feel stupid saying i miss him after such a short period of time. i saw him for maybe 20 minutes today but it's not very much when i'm used to spending so much time with him... 3 days is a long time for me... and it'll be even longer prolly than that but maybe thats good. it'll give me time to see everyone else by myself. and for a lil alone time that i don't really want. i couldn't ask for much more from him right now and i'm incredibly happy with what this is becoming.
i got REALLY sick tonight and i'm bruising a LOT and really badly... my head hurts and im SUPER tired (whic his REALLY unlike me) and my racing thoughts are back... i wish my uterus didn't hurt for no reason and that i wasn't sick to my tummy still. this is no fun :(
and with quitting ellen's i'm almost sure i'll lose at least a little weight.
anything new with you guys that you haven't updated about?