disappionted

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i wait and wait thinking you'll come over and suprise me but i guess i think too much of all these cool things that i wish you would do for me but it doesnt really work out to how i imagine it. i guess i ask for too much i dunno. i went to the park to suprise you cause you didnt come today. i thought we'd go to the park and id get to spend the afternoon with you but we didnt get to. oh well maybe another day. i really need to stop over thinking things and you need to start thinking more of them. thats why i bet we get into stupid little arguments. i know i should stop caring but i cant. i dont think you understand or want to understand how much you mean to me and how much i love you. i cant imagine myself without you and thats why i dont want to go to paris but i guess it will be good for us. hopefully then you'll realize how much i mean to you. but for now i need to not analize things too much and i need to not take everything so personally i know that but you need to show that you love me more. ive already told you and if it doesnt improve then i dont know what to do. my mind is going crazy. i need to live life day by day and enjoy what we have. i love you and i hope you read this.

love.
lauryn