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Stuff sucks alot!! Yeah my b-day will be completly horrible. I wish that everyone from NJ could be here for my B-day. I remember last year and i had an awsome time. Everyone that cared about me was there but now they won't be. I was happy i had a good life , but my parents had to pick everything up and move. Moving didn't change anything for the good. My step dad is never home , my mom is always working now that she has to run both Companys. Me oh i have to stress about being good enough for my mom to be happy. Life back at home was so easy going i didn't stress about school. When i was down i always had people that were there for me. I miss that. I miss having a family not just a bunch of stressed out people that i live with. I miss them acting like they are my family. Even my step brother when he was here wondered what the hell happened to the family in a matter of a few months.
Birthdays only give you more responsibilities to worry about. They make people expect more of you. I remember when birthdays were a good thing they were fun. I remember having parties and having fun. Getting girfts and spending time with loved ones. Could that all be gone? I hate growing up i wish i was still 3 playing with toys instead of all the fun stuff i do now.
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