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Yeah so i havent updated in the longest time! I guess things have been crappy. Work sucks ! I have a lil longer to work there and then i go off to albertsons. I broke up with dave a few months ago and now i've been single. I do want a boyfriend but I'm looking for someone who really does care for me. Next year I have to go to matanzas until i get my car then I'll be back at FPC. It doesnt really matter where i go to school to me because if I really do have true friends they will stay that way. School is just somewhere we go to learn and idk its not a big deal. I guess this year was ok. It went alot better then i thought it would go. I miss NJ alot. Now that i think about it was alot easier for me to find someone that I had a lot of feelings for there. I dont know why but idk i guess the mentality of people everywhere is different. I can't wait untill I go and see all my friends there. I had the option of spending the whole summer there but idk how that would work out because it might turn out to be like moving away again. I miss the place a lot but i dont want to get attached and want to stay there forever and I know thats how it will turn out to be.
So this weekend sucks I feel like shit and I worked for 10 hours yesterday. I have to sit home and study for finals too because school sucks and shit around me sucks too. On a better note last weekend was awsome. I guess. Well at least it was untill monday came along then it all went to shit again. I had an awsome friday night with Nicole and people. She slept over got bit by my monster dog. That kinda started the part of the weekend that sucked. Saturday was cool I went shopping then hung out with "him". Sunday worked and then went home the end. Monday he made it all shit again. It sucks everytime i fall for someone they kinda either like me for the wrong reasons or don't like me at all. I 'm tired of getting hurt! I'm tired of just being a pretty face! Nicole was rite when she said yeah he likes you for your looks because it seems to be that way. Why can't things just be simple and someone care about me for me and not for what i look like it makes me so mad When David and I started dating he didnt know me that well either but he liked me oh so much. Now that I think about it maybe going home is a good idea. It would save me from this whole mess and I would be with people who care about me for me and not for shit reasons. I wish my parents could just pick a place and stay there without always having to move rite as I get used to everything and like the place where I live. I had a boyfriend for 3 years I had friends who cared and loved me and everything else that i loved. Then they just had to pick everything up and move. Wtf is that! I guess I should just forget about everything and just concintrate on school and work. Then maybe i can graduate next year if i try hard enough! Well of to studing i go
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