slipping into a depression and i cannot turn around.
Yesterday I became an aunt of beautiful baby lincoln! filled with emotions i have never felt before, and we're hit with it, Lincoln is not going to make it. i dont want to list or think about all the things that are wrong with this baby, he could have 2 days..or he could have a year. brittany is so strong, yet so sad. today she said to me before she was taken away in an ambulance to go be with her baby in jacksonvile, "i have to bury my baby" god this is so fucking hard. she thinks she is being punished. i wish this grim reeper who has been following me around since nipss died, taking friends and family one by one, WOULD GO THE FUCK AWAY!leave me alone!