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Jan 01, 2006 22:17

Today I realized that i dont have to pretend that im happy. i dont have to be the strong one anymore. i cant be. im breaking down. it hits me the hardest when im alone. i cannot believe you are gone. i just keep thinking you are gonna walk in my front door or im going to wake up and walk into the den and you'll be sleeping there with your shirt off and your dreds everywhere. now my keyboard is soaked with tears again and i cant really see what im typing, i just wish this wasnt real. i dont know if i will ever be able to get over this. i went to your house on christmas, your mom was so sad. i wish i could take the pain away. i wish i could stop crying but i just cant. i cant pretend im ok anymore. i just dont know how to live without you.
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