she says that love is for fools who fall behind
Right now I hate this place. I've been thinking really positive, but today it's all coming out that I feel like I don't belong here at all. Barely anyone is taking the time to really get to know me. I am fucking awesome person, what am I supposed to do to show people this? No one wants to just waste time together and bullshit. Everyone leaves on the weekend and there is nothing to do. John is downstairs and he seriously would rather sit in his room then spend time together, even though we don't know what to do. But who cares?
I feel like my spirit is dying here. I used to feed off the positive energy I would get from my friends, but here I'm not feeding off anything. I feel like this is a temporary place, not where I'm going for my college education. I hate feeling like this. My visions of college were totally false.
It's hard to stay positive all the time. Today I just can't do it. I want to go home. I want to see my friends. Meg just sent me a really nice package letter deal in the mail. I opened it and cried. I don't feel loved here at all. I want to go home.
I feel like my spirit is dying here. I used to feed off the positive energy I would get from my friends, but here I'm not feeding off anything. I feel like this is a temporary place, not where I'm going for my college education. I hate feeling like this. My visions of college were totally false.
It's hard to stay positive all the time. Today I just can't do it. I want to go home. I want to see my friends. Meg just sent me a really nice package letter deal in the mail. I opened it and cried. I don't feel loved here at all. I want to go home.