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[x_colie15_x]

gah... i am so flippin' tired of having bad days!!!

i guess i've gotten good at faking like i'm doing alright though because no one seems to notice or care

i'm scared of who i'm becoming; like i mean i seriously don't know who i am now...

i just want to crawl into a hole and stay there forever. if only i knew of a convenient hole around here.

oh well, i guess i'll just go back to what i'm accustomed to now--being the "silent sufferer"

i've discovered it's hard to be happy for someone else, when you can't even be happy with yourself...

i guess this is just what i get for putting the rest of my life on hold for one person =(
and sometimes i wonder if this will EVER change...

"I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way"

i'm sorry i'm like this... but, i love you all