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Well today is Tuesday. I haven't talked to Blake since like late on Saturday night and I don't plan on talking to him anytime soon either...well ever actually. We were on the phone on Saturday and then I started talking to his little brother Zack. Any ways I was like well make sure you come to my pool party for my birthday and make sure to tell Blake his white butt is going swimming too. And then Blake got on the phone and was like "Pool Party? What Pool Party?" and I was like "My birthday party stupid" ya know like playing around. Well then he gets all defensive and starts getting an attitude and yelling and cussing at me saying stuff like " don't call me stupid this is the first I heard about any party and all this crap" and then he ends up throwing the phone at his little brother. Well I started telling Zach EXACTLY how I felt. I was like "Zach me and Blake are done. We are never ever ever ever ever going out again. I'm done with him and I don't like him and I think he is the one with the anger problems not me. And I'm completely done with him. This is why we are not together because he has anger issues. And I just kept carrying on and then Zach was like "your on speaker phone" and then Blake started saying "Glad you got all that out now, save me the time of not calling you anymore" and I was like "ok I'm glad I got that out too" and he was like" well this phone is going dead if you want to talk to Zach some more your going to have to call the house phone" and I was like "mmkay...no" and then we said bye and I didn't call back. I'm done with Blake. I mean there for awhile I was really thinking about him a lot and thinking about getting back together with him and everything. But like I've said plenty of times every time I think I want to be with him and I call him something happens. And like any other time he got an attitude. And his attitude is something I will not put up with. Not at all. I tired of it completely. But any ways school is starting in two days. I'm going to forget about dating and love and all that crap and just concentrate on getting my shit together in school. Like my supplies, my grades, keeping my attendance up and everything else and if so it happens I start dating someone at school then so be it. But I'm not purposely going out and looking for someone. Let them come to me. But any ways I'm going to always be happy. I'm going to try and look at the positive side of everything and just thank god for another day, my family, and my friends. I mean think about it I'm almost 16, Love should be the least of my worries and that's how it is going to be...So I hope any ways. Oh yea and to top it all off I was going through my room and I found some memories of "some good old days" and I guess you could say I had a "moment" But any ways. More later. ♥ ho0ver ♥