Dedication..
this is a dedication to one of my best friends~ jessy
u mean the world to me. thank you for always being there whenever i needed you most. i remember the days where u just randomly drove down to schaumburg just to pick me up and take me to wendys so we could have a "girl chat." u did everything n i feel like i took it for granted. idk how i feel... i cant begin to describe the way it feels to lose a sister. i talked to your mom n she told me what happened. at first when i heard the news in school.. i thought that your mom said that u fell off a cliff. i was so confused because there arent much cliffs down there. i didnt kno whether or not to call your mom and talk to her. but ms daglas- the lady i told u about- my counselor? well.. she told me that it was appropriate to get some closure. so i decided to call your mom and ask her what happened. she told me that u skidded off the road n since u were speeding, u hit a light pole n the car flipped over. im so angry because it shouldnt happen to u. so many people speed, why are u the one who gets in shit for it? why didnt u wear a seat belt? i know u said it bothers ur boobs.. but .. it could have saved ur life this one time. im so mad because i felt like no one was watching over u to tell u to wear a seatbelt or to not speed. why are u gone? i dont understand. i guess im being extremely selfish. but i really want u here with me. i want ur dumb comments in my Lj. do u remember that ur last comment to me in my Lj was that i was weird? well now im lonely. i dont know how to get over this. ive never had a death occur in my life where i really knew the person. even though we didnt get to talk all that much cuz we lived so far.. and towards the end we lost touch sorta.. i always knew u were there. and so now i feel like its not fair. i looked through all my pictures n i regret that we never took a picture together. but yeah.. i still got the pictures u sent me of ur prom. u were so pretty.. im going to try not crying cuz i kno u love when we laugh together. n im going to try not to think of u too much.. not because of ne other reason but because it'll hurt too much. i think i found my peace w/ this whole thing.. and im sorry.. but jessy, i decided i dont wanna go to ur wake/funeral. not because i dont wanna believe ure gone, but because i think i already found my closure talking to ur mom. if i reopen everything.. idk, id just feel worse. so i hope u understand. okay.. well i think im done. this was my letter to u. bye.
through everything, no matter where u are.. u'll always be in my memory.. n i'll always <3 u forever and always..
MY LATIN BABY, PRINCESS WANNABE, GHETTO FAB, WORLDS BEST HURR DRESSER, MOOOOOLAH LOVING, JESSY! <3333
RIP JESSICA MARIA RODRIGUEZ (11/11/1986-05/09/2005)
