Our minds pressed and guarded, while our flesh disregarded the lack of space for the light-hearted.
In the boom that beats our drum.
Y'know I could really do with a hug right now.
I get so lonely sometimes y'kno? it'll be nearly a full year since I've had a proper b/f and I just feel very very ... single .... but not in the young, free n single sense. In the depressing sense.
But then I hear bout all the couples that I know and how they fight, and fuck each other over, and play games with each others heads, and how they fall out, then make up, and then fall out, and make up again and how they bitch and moan about each other all the time and then tear themselves apart when they think they've gone that little bit too far and its all so complicated and angry and messy.
And I'm just there and watching and thinking to myself "They actually don't even realise how lucky they are." Because no-one realises the importance of a partner until they dont have one.
I look at all these different couples and I wonder "Jesus Christ is it actually worth it?" I mean of all the people in the world that I could possibly have feelings for and He doesn't even know I'm alive. And I dont know when I'm ever going to get over her. The fact that every time I see her she is always so nice and so hot and so sweet doesn't help at all.
Not that I have the stones to do ANYTHING about ANY of it anyway.
And should I even bother anyway? I mean all you ahve to do is look at my track record to realise that - if it goes accordingly - I'm just going to get bored in a couple of months, possibly cheat and might even feel a bit bad about it they're a nice person, but mostly I'll just drag it on far longer than it has to be just to complicate things a bit and eventually dump them because I miss being single.
So aye, wind up back here then? No matter what I do thats what is inevitably going to happen. Not that I'd actually take a genuine risk where my feelings are involved. God forbid I actually appear vulnerable in front of another human being. All I have to offer is a Mona Lisa heart, a head full of nonesense but absolutely no spine whatsoever.
Whatta catch.
Y'know I could really do with a hug right now.
I get so lonely sometimes y'kno? it'll be nearly a full year since I've had a proper b/f and I just feel very very ... single .... but not in the young, free n single sense. In the depressing sense.
But then I hear bout all the couples that I know and how they fight, and fuck each other over, and play games with each others heads, and how they fall out, then make up, and then fall out, and make up again and how they bitch and moan about each other all the time and then tear themselves apart when they think they've gone that little bit too far and its all so complicated and angry and messy.
And I'm just there and watching and thinking to myself "They actually don't even realise how lucky they are." Because no-one realises the importance of a partner until they dont have one.
I look at all these different couples and I wonder "Jesus Christ is it actually worth it?" I mean of all the people in the world that I could possibly have feelings for and He doesn't even know I'm alive. And I dont know when I'm ever going to get over her. The fact that every time I see her she is always so nice and so hot and so sweet doesn't help at all.
Not that I have the stones to do ANYTHING about ANY of it anyway.
And should I even bother anyway? I mean all you ahve to do is look at my track record to realise that - if it goes accordingly - I'm just going to get bored in a couple of months, possibly cheat and might even feel a bit bad about it they're a nice person, but mostly I'll just drag it on far longer than it has to be just to complicate things a bit and eventually dump them because I miss being single.
So aye, wind up back here then? No matter what I do thats what is inevitably going to happen. Not that I'd actually take a genuine risk where my feelings are involved. God forbid I actually appear vulnerable in front of another human being. All I have to offer is a Mona Lisa heart, a head full of nonesense but absolutely no spine whatsoever.
Whatta catch.