getting high crashin cars and makin mistakes keepin her face packed with cocaine..
my dance school is going to fucking kill me
i love it and everything..
dancing is the most amazing thing ever
like when im in that room running my stuff
i dont think about anything except
pointing my toes and connecting my posses
everything just goes away.. i love it
and im done with code names right now
velma jill blah blah blah everyone knows..
so here it is cuz i just cant take it anymore..
IF PATRICIA DOESNT FUCKING QUIT COMPANY
ILL KILL HER OR CAUSE HER BODILY HARM
THAT PREVENTS HER FROM DANCING EVER AGAIN
AND IF BRITNAY DOESNT PUT SOME FUCKING GEL
(or whale sperm lol) ON HER HAIR AND STOP BITCHING
ABOUT EVERY LITTKE THING FOR 5 FUCKING SECONDS
WELL THEN SHES NUMBER TWO ON MY DEATH LIST
wow.. sorry.. had to get that out..
oh yeah and one more thing too..
JEN & MARLILYN NEED TO GIVE US MORE THEN
A WEEKS NOTICE TO DO SOMETHING THATS IMORTANT
WERE ALWAYS THERE AND OUR PARENTS
ARE ALWAYS WORKING SO WE CAN BE THERE
CUZ HOW DO THEY EXPECT FOR OUR LIVES TO REVOLVE AROUND THEM
ITS JUST NOT FUCKING FAIR AND I CANT TAKE THAT ANYMORE EITHER
and im just so torn cuz its so much of a love hate thing
and like i have to stay cuz really what else am i guna do
its not like i have a life outside dance anyway
and even tho i have to deal with all this shit
everytime i get on that dance floor nothing matters
and it just makes me feel so good & i know that its cuz
dancing is my passion its just what i love to do
so i guess in the end its all worth it
except when im done with dance and go home for the night
and get started in the face with a million hours of homework
and i just had a long tiring day so i blow it off and go to sleep
and then i have no idea whats goin on in school
so i just blow that off to cuz i need some sleep anyway
and my grades keep dropping.. and dropping.. and dropping..
and then i think about the fact that im not kristen and i never will be
so then chances of me ever working in the world of dance is slim to none
and then it occurs to me that dance might actually be destroying my future
i just have no fucking clue what do even think or do or say anymore
caitlin.
i love it and everything..
dancing is the most amazing thing ever
like when im in that room running my stuff
i dont think about anything except
pointing my toes and connecting my posses
everything just goes away.. i love it
and im done with code names right now
velma jill blah blah blah everyone knows..
so here it is cuz i just cant take it anymore..
IF PATRICIA DOESNT FUCKING QUIT COMPANY
ILL KILL HER OR CAUSE HER BODILY HARM
THAT PREVENTS HER FROM DANCING EVER AGAIN
AND IF BRITNAY DOESNT PUT SOME FUCKING GEL
(or whale sperm lol) ON HER HAIR AND STOP BITCHING
ABOUT EVERY LITTKE THING FOR 5 FUCKING SECONDS
WELL THEN SHES NUMBER TWO ON MY DEATH LIST
wow.. sorry.. had to get that out..
oh yeah and one more thing too..
JEN & MARLILYN NEED TO GIVE US MORE THEN
A WEEKS NOTICE TO DO SOMETHING THATS IMORTANT
WERE ALWAYS THERE AND OUR PARENTS
ARE ALWAYS WORKING SO WE CAN BE THERE
CUZ HOW DO THEY EXPECT FOR OUR LIVES TO REVOLVE AROUND THEM
ITS JUST NOT FUCKING FAIR AND I CANT TAKE THAT ANYMORE EITHER
and im just so torn cuz its so much of a love hate thing
and like i have to stay cuz really what else am i guna do
its not like i have a life outside dance anyway
and even tho i have to deal with all this shit
everytime i get on that dance floor nothing matters
and it just makes me feel so good & i know that its cuz
dancing is my passion its just what i love to do
so i guess in the end its all worth it
except when im done with dance and go home for the night
and get started in the face with a million hours of homework
and i just had a long tiring day so i blow it off and go to sleep
and then i have no idea whats goin on in school
so i just blow that off to cuz i need some sleep anyway
and my grades keep dropping.. and dropping.. and dropping..
and then i think about the fact that im not kristen and i never will be
so then chances of me ever working in the world of dance is slim to none
and then it occurs to me that dance might actually be destroying my future
i just have no fucking clue what do even think or do or say anymore
caitlin.