A Letter to God
i have not followed in your footsteps faithfully. i am not a wonderful person that shines with radiant light. i am not a sinner, but i am distant from you at heart. i feel at times you have forsaken me, to live a life of respite and despair. yet i fight with a striking zeal to not have that life. i feel cold and empty almost all of the time. i wish to feel alive, i wish to be alive. my pale skin could use a little light, my darkened eyes need redialate back to the sun. my way of thinking should not evolve around how shall i avoid this person, or how can i run away from this one. i need to step out of this darkness that has abosloved my life. i will not succumb to what everybody seems to believe i am tempted by. i feel alive when im with someone i love, yet i have no one to call my own.....i guess through all of this rambling im trying to get at is.....i want to change, but i dont know how. they say there is strength in numbers, power behind those that love you. well my strength is weak, and i have no one to turn too.......i pain to believe in you, as it feels mostly of lies....but i have no one to turn too anymore....maybe somehow, you could turn me back on the right road, maybe you could show me the part of you that ive never seen.....then maybe my spirit shall be at ease, and those around me i wont so easily push away.