Because of you....

[x_blender]

There were times when I would cry myself to sleep....The Song BEcause of you just reminded me of all the freaking pain I've gone through. Not just with guys but with people in general. I mean you have to listen to this song, It totally represents me. How I feel. How I've changed through the years. I think I've grown better as a person but there are also a lot of negative things I have acquired from all of my experiences. Sometimes I wish I could control things. The truth is we never have control of our lives. There is always something that needs to go wrong.

There is always something that you wish you didn't feel towards someone else because it will cause chaos.
There is always something that you want to say but you can't.
Something you mutter under your breath everytime you see that person.
Something that is unexplainable.
Sometimes I wish I could control who I liked.
But I can't.
I hate having to feel this pain inside, that makes me tear up when I'm alone.
And because of the past I can't open up to that certain guy I want.
Not only because of the past but because he is controlled by someone else.
Not even just that, but because he isn't interested in me.

People tell me I'm beautiful.
But how can I ever feel beautiful if I can't get the one I want.

All these guys I get are worthless. All these guys I talk to are worth nothing to me.
They don't like me for me,they want something I will not give up.
There is one guy I want but I can never achieve because I just can't.
He doesn't want me.
It pains me to realize this.

Then they say "How do you know he doesn't like you?"

Because he will never take me seriously.