things change..

[x_behbie_xo]

hey guys, well its been forever sense i wrote in here but i figured i should cuz shits changed SO damn much.. well me n ross broke up n i started talkin to this guy steven.. who was goin outt w/ one of my best friends at the time, but he broke up w/ her for me *suposidly* and then we went outt.. i didnt lyke him lyke that at 1st (but i told him i did) .. but yea we went outt but.. woah idk if i should be sayin this on here but oh fucking well the 1st nite we went outt i cheated on him with one of my best guy friends.. i was drunk and i kissed him.. and its not lyke it was a one shot *whoops my bad* kiss it was a *hell fucking yea i want you B A D* kiss.. and he lives by me so he was driving me home that nite.. so finally we left the place we were at (i guess the alley?) n went towards home n fukcin stopped sumwhere and omg it was SO fuckin sexy.. i was saying sumthin (guess it wasnt impt) but he was just lyke *shutup* and he fucking kissed me holy SHIT best fuckin kiss of my life.. so we wound up bein fuck buddies i guess for the next few weeks-ish, and towards the end there after id blown him off n ignored him a million times i realized i truly lyked him, in fact i adore him.. but he has a gf.. and hes a senior this yr.. but.. siiiigh..in the middle of all that i broke up w/ steven but now were back together 2 occupy my time until i get my baby back.. bc i absolutly adore him and idk wat i would do if we never got a chance 2 be 2gether again.. siiigh... yall got no clue wat its lyke to f u c k shit UP =( i want him back.. so now im waitin 4 him 2 tell me he wants me back 2.. and honestly, id do anything 4 him...

on your fingers, count by twos
and when you get to 5 is when
i`ll stop loving you- ♥