This'll be last chance you get to drop my name..

[x_anneathon_o]

Well well well, I haven't updated this in so long.. But I guess it's time too.. I have alot on my mind and this well help me hopefully.. Let's see... I started college at EduTech Centers in Clearwater to be a Massage Therapist.. I like it alot. It's something that really sparks my interest. Pshhh, besides all that dough i'll be making.. haha. Hmmm,... Well as for boys.. I had really liked someone recently, and I was so sure in myself, that he held the key to my happiness.. It might of only been a month or so, but... it didn't feel like that to me.. I told him everything, it was so easy just to open up and let him in, on everything.. yeah we got into a couple little fights, it was stupid. . . We made up, and hungout for the first time, alone.. let me tell how amazing it was.. Gosh, I just wanted to freeze the night so it wouldn't have to end.. We went to his special spot... =] And hungout there for a while.. talked. Went and did some other stuff.. But gezz, as fast as something good comes, its almost as if it was just as fast as its gone.. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but in my head it does.. he was so prefect to me. . . I wasn't in a rush to be in a relationship, but just spending time with him, always made me happy.. Somewhere, sometime... I messed it up.. I really shouldn't blame myself, but I do, I tryed my best to make him happy, I guess I just wasn't good at it.. For whatever the reason was.. I sorta had a gut feeling his feelings were changing, but I tryed to ignore them.. =/ Alls I know is that, when he is ready to get into something, I just hope its with him, I feel we have such a great connection.. I wouldn't want to throw it away.. Who knows how hes feels though, Today will be the first day, that I can't talk to him, just to see how his days going, or what hes doing... It'll be tough, but I have to do it, I need to give him time, let him breathe a little bit.. And with my biggest wish that he comes back to wanting to be with me... Call me foolish, but i've never had these feelings for someone. Who am I kidding, i've never even had a relationship longer than a month.. Its because I get scared of what could happen, and just when I was ready to let go of everything and be with someone, this happens, maybe i'm just not made to be with anyone.. I know everyone says that after you get off to being on bad terms with someone but, he was surely different to me.. I just have never cared about another person, they way I do for him... I guess as the saying goes... "Only time will tell". Okay enough about that, sorry I just need to get it out.. Well i'm off to go get ready so I can hangout with Kelley. Probably going to Miami.. Change on scenery would be nice.. I think it will be good, so I can stop thinking about all this.. Well until next time..

xo
* Anne *
ox