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it's sorta awkward when you hear things being said about you when you're thought to have been asleep. not that i didn't already agree with half the things that were said, but some of the things made it seem as though i were naive and looking for something that doesn't exist. i don't have a hard time letting go of things because i'm afraid to be single...yeah i haven't had more than a couple months break at a time of being single between relationships since 10th grade, but that does not make me a bad person, nor does it imply that i can't live without relationships. I could choose the single life of going to parties and hooking up or seeing random people, but i know it's not for me. the idea of it never felt right. and so what if it does not take me that long to meet other people after relationships...it is how it is. i don't get into relationships for the security. and in regards to my current situation, i know what you all think i should do. i'm not hanging on to anything for lack of nobody waiting for me when it's gone. i am just the kind of person that can't break something off until i am absolutely 100 percent without a doubt sure that there's no hope. even if you think that's a stupid way to deal with the situation, it's still my decision to make. right now i've just got a lot of factors supporting a break up and also a lot of factors still supporting staying together, so i'm trying really hard to assess what is truly important to me. that's all, really. i know breaking up with someone is hard for me, but i usually come through and do what i have to if i see it fit.
in terms of what i do want, i want what most people want. my idea of being 'swept off my feet' isn't "zomg plz spend money on me and take me everywhere". it is more along the lines of meeting someone who is on the same page as me in regards to lots of things, someone that just gets me. i'd go more into it, but i don't really feel like it.
btw. this post isn't meant as a reply to what i heard last night. it's just that what i heard got me thinking and i wanted to try and write down what was in my head...so yeah. i guess that's all.
in terms of what i do want, i want what most people want. my idea of being 'swept off my feet' isn't "zomg plz spend money on me and take me everywhere". it is more along the lines of meeting someone who is on the same page as me in regards to lots of things, someone that just gets me. i'd go more into it, but i don't really feel like it.
btw. this post isn't meant as a reply to what i heard last night. it's just that what i heard got me thinking and i wanted to try and write down what was in my head...so yeah. i guess that's all.