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it's 7:14 a.m. and i just returned from his house. the only thing harder than saying goodbye to him was saying goodbye twice to him. even though i just saw him and he just left today i still have this feeling of not knowing what to do with myself. i mean, for the past 8 months or so i've seen him almost everyday and he was the onl boyfriend i didnt mind seeing everyday even if there was a possibility that we should have seen each other less. he's always there and now i feel unsafe in a way. i never thought of him as a protector in anyway but maybe he made me feel safe and now i think about going out and it's just like he's not there, im not safe. it's really sad to admit that but its true.
on the way home my windows started to fog up and i didnt know how to fix them and i knew he would but i couldnt call because i cant do that anymore and i couldnt complain and have him show me later because hes not here. so i drove paranoid in this tropical whatever with foggy windows.
i wish that hanging out with other people could make me really happy but i know ill come home at night anf feel empty
i wish that it wasn't raining and freezing last night. i held him for a really long time outside my car when i drop him off and we both just cried and i had to have told him that i love him a million times
i wish i could be more excited for school but i just think that i have no one to come home to.
i wish that all three of my best friends were with me all at the same time all the time but they can't be.
i pray that he still calls me babe everyday<3
on the way home my windows started to fog up and i didnt know how to fix them and i knew he would but i couldnt call because i cant do that anymore and i couldnt complain and have him show me later because hes not here. so i drove paranoid in this tropical whatever with foggy windows.
i wish that hanging out with other people could make me really happy but i know ill come home at night anf feel empty
i wish that it wasn't raining and freezing last night. i held him for a really long time outside my car when i drop him off and we both just cried and i had to have told him that i love him a million times
i wish i could be more excited for school but i just think that i have no one to come home to.
i wish that all three of my best friends were with me all at the same time all the time but they can't be.
i pray that he still calls me babe everyday<3