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i feel like matt has been at new haven for about a year now, when it has really only been 3 days. is this how it's going to feel when johnny goes away? i wish that the fact that he is leaving would just hit him because it's make me sad when it's like he doesn't even care which brings up my biggest fear, that it will never hit and that he'll never care, and that i was caring all along for no reason at all.
and not to take away a portion on samantha's lj subject but why were we wishing the entire summer away in hopes for winter. samantha and i laughed at the fact that we were like "YEAH, WE'RE GONNA GO TO SCHOOL!". WHAT?!? why would i ever say that. the only thing i wanted from winter was comfort and now i have it and now that winter is here it's all going to be taking away.
hes always leaving in one way or another.
but, yesterday i was driving on richmond avenue around 12:30 with daniele going to bring her home. the street was empty. she opened her window to smoke a cigarette and it was chilly and for the first time i thoguht, why is the window open it's freezing? and then she said, i can't believe the summer is over. my stomach dropped like daniele had just told me she was breaking up with me or my dog died or something.
i feel like matt has been at new haven for about a year now, when it has really only been 3 days. is this how it's going to feel when johnny goes away? i wish that the fact that he is leaving would just hit him because it's make me sad when it's like he doesn't even care which brings up my biggest fear, that it will never hit and that he'll never care, and that i was caring all along for no reason at all.
and not to take away a portion on samantha's lj subject but why were we wishing the entire summer away in hopes for winter. samantha and i laughed at the fact that we were like "YEAH, WE'RE GONNA GO TO SCHOOL!". WHAT?!? why would i ever say that. the only thing i wanted from winter was comfort and now i have it and now that winter is here it's all going to be taking away.
hes always leaving in one way or another.
but, yesterday i was driving on richmond avenue around 12:30 with daniele going to bring her home. the street was empty. she opened her window to smoke a cigarette and it was chilly and for the first time i thoguht, why is the window open it's freezing? and then she said, i can't believe the summer is over. my stomach dropped like daniele had just told me she was breaking up with me or my dog died or something.