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i fought it so fucking hard. i lost. im wrapped in it now. so badly tangled i may never figure which way is out. as always, and like all changes, it settles over me in a slow calm. like imagining the words carefully written out in giant print across your mind. UNATTAINABLE. "congratulations, you stupid fuck." sneers the logic sluicing around my consciousness. "youve fucked yourself over. again." whats more, i knew it. saw it coming like a mac truck with halogens a mile into the distance, steadily approaching. and yet again. i.let.my.self.get.hit.