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i want it so fucking bad i can feel it in waves as it passes across my skin. i want blood again. i want to tear and rip and break. i want to defile everything ive built and begin again with this. it always comes back. and once i hear it call to me, theres no ignoring it. its so close this time. its all ive ever asked for with no compromising. only this one will not yield. this one wont be caught. this one wont break the world with me. and all there is is the sitting. the waiting. with watchful eyes, i await the loose seam. trust, darling, when i find it, blood will rain.