Maybe life isn't so abd afterall

[x_a_pretty_mess]

Well today wasnt really that bad afterall. I woke up and TRIED to curl my hair with my new curling iron butit didnt quite work out the way I planned so I sed fuck it and just did nothing to it. So i put my makeup on and then i get in Sams car n look in the mirror and it looks like shit...like it basically loooked like I ad none on so that was a complete waste! I guessi really shouldn't care what I look like as much as I do, but it's kinda hard you know?!? I've come to the conclusion that life doesn't really have to suck ALL the time, that it is what youmake of it and if you are always in a bad mood and always pissed off because of someone or something, then it is gonna suck; but if you start to not let people and what they say or do have an effect on you it's not really that bad! It seems tobe im such a bum anymore, I'm always pssed off about something or someone, I never want to do anything anymore and the worst part about it is I proved my hole point about why life sucks. From now on I really need to not care what people think about me because hey if you like me thats cool and if you dont't hey thats alright too but me being pissedoff because of the way someone else feals about me really isn't worth all the stress!Anyways school today was alright, I slept 3rd, 4th, some of 5th and some of 7th pd today which is really bad considerig im BARELY passing bio and I have it 5th! Thats another thing I KNOW that I can get way etetr grades then Ih ave now I just dont...I don't know why I'm so damn lazy! I guess things with a certain "situation" that I got myself into are getting better...well they seem to be atleast and I really hope they do! (ony a select few know about it)

I realized while I was typing this that I sit here and pickout the bad things about myself and never think on he posative side, maybe there is nothing to look forward to?!?

xoxo